-Only God Can Judge Me For Who I am -

A day at Tampines

2009-11-02T13:09:00.002+08:00

Went to tampines ystd...one ENJOYABLE i must say...hahas
it was one end to the other end lor...haha...PLUS...
im ALONE without any friend to talk to..BORING!!!
WELL, at least i still have music to listen to...
reach tampines...waited awhile and we went to 3 malls...T1, Tampines mall and Century square...
My day is filled with joy...walking around with someone whom im comfortable with...im happy to be with...he's a good tour guide...haha...
went to lots of shop and he went in to buy his sister's birthday present-Mickey mouse bear
haha...we choose the present together and makes it more valuable.. then we stop at this shop and look at something...he promise to buy me that...haha...i wil wait...haha...

i have always dream that a guy will hold my hands
bring me with him to a whole new place
to build a new life....happy life...
where nobody is there to disturb us...

my prince, hold my hands and bring me to that place
where we will live happily together
away from people who tries to drive up apart...
only GOD and death will do us apart...

-loveforever-

BACK

2009-11-02T12:39:00.002+08:00

back to blogging...so long never blog...LOLS
anyway...my life now is a bliss...
Many things happened...people come and people go
now that im free from someone,i can fly...fly up high and soar like a brave eagle...
now i am a brave eagle...
I am flying up high in the sky with my wings spread out wide open.
Thank you ALLAH!

Kamu hadir ketika ku memerlukan seseorang untuk mengubati diriku
Kamu bagaikan penawar pada luka ku
Aku berterima kasih pada maha yang Esa.
Semoga kami berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat dan hingga ke syurga.

He,the medicine to sorrow has come in the time when i really needed the most.
He,the comapanion to loneliness has filled up my heart
I now am not lonely...

2nd semester started

2009-10-09T18:22:00.003+08:00

Long time since i've blog..been real busy these days.
many things happen back then...both happy and sad ones...
let the sweet memories retain and the bitter ones fade away...
let the bitter be long forgotten and never be repeated...

school has started since 5 oct...i only had the time to write today...
oct 1 is the starting of sweet memories...may it last forever...
came as a medicine to me...heal my wound though it has not heal fully...
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kehadiran kamu di dalam hidupku bagaikan pengubat hati ku yg hancur ditusuk belati...
kamu telah memberi hatimu padaku dan adalah tanggungjawabku untuk menyimpan dan menjaganya dengan penuh kasih sayang.lalu kita bertemu dan kamu diulit asmara...yang kini membara...tiada akhirnya...semoga doaku dikabulin...agar kita sentiasa gembira dan senang bersama...tabah mengharungi detik sukar bersama...dan semoga hingga kita disatukan yg akhirnya akan ke syurga bersama..Amin...kita kini saling punyai perasaan yg sama..antara kita adanya rasa itu...semoga rasa cinta itu tidak terpadam.Insyallah.Amin.Kini,kita diuji...sejauh mana kita boleh bertahan..Insyallah kita blh sygku...Semoga kita sabar mengharungi ini...

SEOUL GARDEN&UT3

2009-08-21T19:50:00.015+08:00

FINALLY..

After 4 mths of schooling...today is our 1st W47F class outing..Yeah! hahas...

after we had our UT3 for Cognitive problem solving,we as a class headed down to Causeway Point for a sumptous meal or we call it lunch...hahas....We went to SEOUL GARDEN!!! hahas...

We ate lots of food...haha...serving aftr serving...it was a very wonderful lunch that we had together as a class...we paid $200++ on the lunch...hehe...it was worth it though...we fill our stomachs till the MAXXX!!! hahas...

i had lots of food too..had few plates of everything...we had ice-cream...
DELICIOUSSSS is the word that i can descibe...loads of pics were taken...hehe...after eating, we went arcade to play...hahas...LUVS W47F~
should organise more outing together...hmmm...wat's next??? picnic?? movie??

here are the pics:

this are some of my classmates...the rest MIA...lols...

Clement&Liyana showing their post..lols

this is francis...the cool guy in my class...hahas..

Clement with his lips like that...hahas...Elfy at the background..Clement&chopsticks...hahas

Clement&Vincent..hahas...alot of egg sia...lols...

Gal friends...hahas..lovely people around me...see the plates...told u we ate alot of food

Me eating using chopsticks..hehes...

Some of the food that we ate..rather tempting ehk...hahas...

This is only some of the food that is on my table...the rest...either haven cook or eaten already...

just a candid shot by classmate...lols...

gals...

2 weeks...

2009-08-04T19:51:00.000+08:00

haix...its left with 2 week for the 1st semester to be over...im having mixed feelings...
i dunno what to feel...sad or happy...hmm...i will miss my W47F...both pleasant and unpleasant memories is there but i shall only rmbr those pleasant memories...UT3 coming up...so start studying!!
hahas..why do people just dun admit their mistakes?

2009-07-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

rather disappointed ba...was suppose to be at Sentosa with my beloved W47F...haizzz...for dunno what reason, they cancelled the picnic.wah!! haixxx....super disappointing ba...hahas..went out swimming with my best friend today...met at jurong east swimming complex.had a wonderful swim today.while best friend sun tan himself, i went for swim in the competition pool.i swam till my legs feel like jelly...lols...we swim,chat,laugh,joke and share stories together.its fun ba..i am exhausted by the swim i had today...lols...at 3.30pm,went for a quick shower and head off..hahas...saw this orange container that is filled with drink...hahas...i told best friend to "kapok" the drink...hahas...look tempting larh the drink...i was actually super thirsty and there u go...an orange container filled with drink...hahas...Thank you best friend!!! hahas...lols..

just something random...(in mly)

tiada yang lebih indah dari cinta
ku tatap wajah itu..
ku rasa gembira apabila ku rasa bersamamu
seolah-olah kamu dpt hilangkan segala kedukaan ku

wajah yg penuh dengan kelembutan memang menggegarkan dunia
senyum kamu,tawa kamu..
membuat dunia ini seperti syurga..
di mana adanya bidadari-bidadari yg cangat cantik

sentosa??

2009-07-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

last Friday,being the most exciting moment of being in class...lols...we played like crazy...during our break,we played "bumper cars". Since all our chairs have wheels on them,a few of us line ourselves up like a caterpillar and then we roll it outside the corridoor..Hahas..indeed we even challenge the class at the adjacent corridoor.was damn fun playing it.haha..next,we played with magic slime ball...hahas...its actually use for cleaning the keyboard.instead of using it to clean,we took it out andplayed it like playdoh...hahas...we make it into different kind if things and took pictures with the "magic slime ball". hahas..had so much fun today! W47F Roxs!

went out to watch "Harry Potter and the half blood prince". Hmm...overall i think its fine but the ending is kindda hanging...so at the last part, i was like..."huh? finish already??"lols...well, i like some of the scenes though...hehes...kindda looking forward to next saturday coz W47F is organising a picnic at Sentosa...hehes...still thinking if i should go...well,i'll think about it...there is 60% chance that im going...lols...What should i bring if i go?? any suggestions??

Hate it larh....

2009-07-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

I HATE IT LARH....HATE IT WHEN PPL JUST DUN UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU TELL THEM...
STOP INTRUDING MY PRIVACY BECAUSE I DUN WANT TO SHARE IT WITH YOU...I ONLY SHARE IT WITH PPL WHO ARE CLOSE TO ME...
DUN YOU GET IT????
CANT YOU TELL THAT I DUN LIKE IT??
DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT TOO??
GOOD FREND DO NOT NEED TO MEET EVERYDAY!!!
GOOD FREND DO NOT NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL AND GO HOME TOGETHER!!!
i really hope u understand...
i will not reveal any of my secrets to you...i only let my best friend know...
sometimes you make me sick being around you...wanted to tell you but i hold back..thinking that you will be hurt....but did you ever think about my feelings??
call urself my frend??
Think about what you have done to me....
Reflect...
Dun blame me if things dun turn out to be the way you wanted...

WEST MALL..CAMWHORE!!!

2009-07-13T08:43:00.002+08:00

Saturday-11July2009 OUTING, CAMWHORE!!
Went out with Jinn Chyau (best friend) on Saturday. We met each other at Jurong East and we train-ed to West Mall. We went there coz I wanted best friend to accompany me to some SPF Career Roadshow and of course take pictures!! Hahas...we reach West Mall around 2 plus and we went straight to the Atrium for the Roadshow thought it was going to be difficult to find...hahas...it was just in front of our eyes...hehes..Anyways...went in and ask a few questions to the officers there and when I am satisfied, I told best friend to walk around at West Mall…Best friend is nice lor...He bought for me something that I really want…hehe..Thank You Best Friend!! Haha...Can say that we went to MOST shops there and I can say that I was a little worn out...hahas...Walk n walk around till we don't want to walk anymore. Then best friend say he is hungry and he bought himself bread from BreadTalk. Best friend feels bad because I can’t eat that bread…lols…It’s alright best friend! For some reason, West Mall is crowded on that day. Since West Mall is crowded; we went out from there and find a place to sit and to take pictures. We took a few shots and after that best friend suggest that I put on the things that he bought for me and best friend so sweet lor...he put it on for me...Thanks you best friend..We really camwhore lor...hahas...lols...I LOVE CAMWHORE-ING with best friend. Hehehes…A lot of pose lor...I LOVE all the pictures that were taken!! Halfway taking pictures, then it rain. Hahas…LOLS...It was SUPER FUN!! While waiting for the rain to stop, we went to a handphone shop nearby and we try all the handphones there...HAHAS!! Best friend was like..."Let's take a picture using this phone." Best friend really take a picture of us with that stylo phone larh...lols..
Then we went to the Burger King and sat outside and we CAMWHORE AGAIN!!! We were enjoying taking pictures with different styles and different pose. I definitely enjoy myself. I bet best friend also enjoy himself. I told best friend…
Me:"Why don't we take picture inside the MRT?"
Him:"You sure you want to take?"
Me:"Yea. Let's take one picture in the MRT.LOLS"
Haha…Yes...Indeed we took a picture inside the train and some of them were actually looking at us…not to mention just now when we took pictures at West Mall…LOLs…Don’t care about them lor…We are only taking pictures what. We train-ed back to Lakeside and we alight…had to walk super fast…haha…was getting late for me larh…haixx…then my dad called me…asking for my whereabouts…LOLS…I’m so like in trouble larh….but NO…I’m not…hehes…My dad say he’s going to fetch me…hehes…Best friend very sweet lor…He accompany me till my parents reached to come and fetch me. While waiting, we did a shop-hopping…HAHAS…we were practically going from one shop to other, sit back down and less than 2 minutes, we are actually going into shops..LMAO!!! Best friend bought a Harvania for himself. I like it coz I choose it for best friend…hehes…It is a green and yellow Harvania. We chatted and chatted till my parents came. I like chatting with best friend.
To best friend, thank you for your time on Saturday. I really appreciate it. Best friend, I will see you soon k…Take care best friend..Love you Best friend..

some pictures...

Back 2 School

2009-07-02T18:49:00.004+08:00

this picture is taken outside JC's house..I like the flower..nice?

today is great! finally in back in school after 1 week at home, doing e-learning. Haizz...during that one week at home, i felt terrible larh..haiyo...cannot take it...stay at home...in front of laptop...doing discussion forum, worksheet, pdt...Haha...now its OVER!!! I'M BACK IN SCHOOL!!! Wohoo~

Anyways...let me say what happen today..ehemm(clear my throat)...lols...
i went to school as per normal...went out of my house at 6.50am...bus-ed to interchange...
traine-ed to Jurong East...hehees...At Jurong East, I saw this cute guy...very tall...sexy lips...hahas...well...im not attracted though but i cant resist looking at him...he has this pleasant face to look at..to kill my boredom in the train, i just look at him secretly...kekeke...then i notice the same thing too...he was looking at me too..Oh My!! hahas...then there is once where our eyes met...argh!!! lols...i cant describe it in words...Hmm...the sweet thing is...he is also an RP students...how nice!!!
in class, i was so happy to see all my classmates back...haha...I had Maths module today...i LOVE my today's group larh...its is one of my best team...hehes...best friend....guess what? HE is inside my team!!! I like being in the same group as him...lols...to cut short the story, hahas...HE ask me whether I want to go home with him or not...OH DEAR!!! haha... *Flying in Cloud 9* weee~
haha...i agree to go home with him but horh...others also got follow...haixx....miss sia...haizz...kepo larh they all...haha...joking larh...well...its was fun going home as a group...
orite...tats it..I hope tmr will be a better day..
see you soon k..

Badminton&Table tennis

2009-06-27T19:38:00.003+08:00

The very first thing that woke me up is the sound of my handphone telling me that I have a message. I was shocked cause its like damn early...haha...like 5.57am...lols...i drag myself to see who could that be..Hahas...its my dad!! haha...well...Dad went to M'sia with my younger bro today...its left with the ladies at home...lols...dunno if he is coming home or sleeping there...haizz...hmm...dad wants me to help him pay his season parking and i agreed to help my dad...hehes...then as promised, i gave a wake up call to my best friend, Jinn Chyau...i told him i will be meeting him around his area and then we go for breakfast together. After paying the season parking for my dad, I bus-ed down to meet my best friend...haha...he was already waiting for me at the bus stop...lols...then we go eat breakfast...we had wanton noodle and teh o...hahas..he said the wanton doesnt taste nice...lols...

After that, we train-ed to Woodlands interchange..thought that my friend would have reach but they wasnt even out from their house!! then we decide to walk around the "pasar malam" while waiting for them to reach...then we walked to RP and start warming up and play badminton...after tired of playing badminton, my best friend teach me how to play table tennis...hehe...best friend was really patient when he was teaching me larh...lols...haizz...i must train more on table tennis le...lols...i enjoy playing it though..keke...will play with him again soon...at about 3.45pm, we get ourselves ready to go home and have our dinner...

Went to Causeway Point to eat...we had Penang Kuey Teow(is that how u spell it??) and we chatted alot...hehes...i love it larh! we laugh alot too!! lols...train-ed back to jurong...hahas...on the way home...hahas...funny things happen larh and i will not write it here...its just btwn me n best friend..horh best friend? hahas...we really chat alot today...we alight at Lakeside, walk to near his house the bus stop...then i took 185 back home while waving goodbye to my best friend...lols...

I enjoyed myself today larh best friend...did you enjoy urself?? hahas...Thank You once again for teaching me table tennis...see you soon alrite...take care...

FAther's DAy 0'9

2009-06-21T10:37:00.004+08:00

The week pass very quickly...hahas...i love that actually!!! hahas...but when it comes to weekend...its too fast...i hate that...lols...My week has been great this week...I came across a lot of new things that is actually happening in school...hahas!! I was surprise when I hear about it..hmm...why does it have to happen in school? can't it be somewhere else where it is far away from ppl's view...lols...i wonder...

Today is Father's day...TO all Fathers in the world..."HAPPY FATHER"S DAY!!!"

As it is Father's Day, I cook for my father...hahas...lols...Hopefully my dad will like the dish that i cook for him...hehes...Will be going out later with my family..to celebrate...Tmr will be going to school as per normal...I hope tmr's problem will be better and more exciting...To my dear frends, i miss you all alot...haha....will find time to meet you guys...enjoy ur holidays yea...hahas...
shall update more often...hahas...

New LOok

2009-06-11T21:20:00.005+08:00

Just wanted some new look for my blog...
haha...its been some time since I change it...
Hmm...holidays are coming to an end...How dreadful can this be??
Orrhhh....
Hehe...Well...
Look on the bright side yea!!
Holidays this time round is mostly spent at home for me...mostly resting
the weather do not permit me to go out so often...so HOT!!
Some updates on my dear frends...
some of them went on a holiday....to be specific....TIOMAN!!!
argh!! took pictures of TIOMAN and guess what??
I straight away fall in love with TIOMAN....it is very beautiful...I would love to go there one day..
Some of them went to Kuala Lumpur,Bukit Bintang..
I have been there before and I was happy to be there...that was when I went with my school on my school trip and when my parents went there with my uncle..
Hmm...for my dearest uncle...he's going to Thailand with his bike this month...WOW!!
Initially I thought of following my dearest uncle...but...hmmm...its a long journey ride dude...hahas..for sure my butt will hurt...hahas...LMAO!!
When school reopen, it will be a more exciting as days goes by...
Test will be coming...
All the best yea!!

FINALLY!!!

2009-05-31T15:12:00.002+08:00

Its like FINALLY !!!
I am blogging again....It has been a really busy day everyday for me since the start of my poly life...that is since 20th april 2009...on this day, it is another mark in my life....
In short,there are lots of changes that I have to do..its not easy...going to school with everyone new to you...hahas..surprisingly, i think my life is chaging...in a good way of course...i found new frends in a short period of time...hmm...its just that I have choose my frends wisely...Its important...I love my life and would not want to ruin it..In general, my school is unique as the way we learn is different...we learn everything by ourselves...we are only guided by ppl who are called as facilitator...they will not tell you whether you are right or wrong...they are just there to trigger some questions and make you more confuse...haha....its mentally tiring of course...at the end of the day, you will present to the whole class what you have come to conclusion...that is how my everyday life would be...Hmm...i am settled down in my school and i guess i have no more regrets being in my school...May all my days in my school be an exciting and wonderful one...hehe...i am missing my secondary school frends...especially someone
(u know who u are ba)....haha...long time didnt meet...shall meet up soon...lolz...

30May 2009
I am very HAPPY!!!
I feel like I am in cloud 9...OMG!!
All I can think is "Thank YOu GOd"'
I have been missing someone dearly in my life and I met my dear someone on this special day,30May 2009...hehe...it has been so long since I last saw this special someone...We met at SEmbawang...hahas..we went for a family function...birthday party to be precise...lolz...the 1st thing that happens when i saw him was....a very sexy smile that can send me melting to the ground...as i come near to him, my heart beats faster...haha...i feel like giving you a hug but i reframe myself from it..haha...i really enjoyed myself...i sat with him...dun care about what others say...hahas...we chatted,laughed and enjoy each others company till we part again...the most sad thing is when im leaving him...its really difficult to meet him and i just pour out my heart...saying when can we meet again...my heart feels very light when he say, " Iqah, you can always call me and i will arrange for us to meet each other." I was super elated larh...hehes...then smiles were exchange before I left for Yishun. Another function there...I kept smiling to myself on my journey to Yishun.H'e sure make my day..I was awesome!!

31 May09
HAhas...my grandma come to my house and slept here...i hope she will stay here longer...its like very rare where my grandma will come and sleep at my house. Often my family will come and visit her...hehes...today didnt go out...very tired...hahas...i just wish to stay at home and chill. I am hoping I can meet my beloved frends soon...miss you alotsszzz!! now i am having holiday...haha...i am going to enjoy my holidays...hehe...after 2 weeks of holiday, i will be fully charged and ready to go back to poly. I will study hard and get a good GPA...then graduate with a full cert diploma and start my career...get my license...own a vehicle on my own....settle down...hahas...that will be my future plans..

STUDY HARD.PLAY HARD TOO!!

Meeting Honie On Labour DAy

2009-05-01T23:08:00.001+08:00

Today...is LAbour DAy...lolz...Dad not working....hehes...my dad starts at 7am.woke up...got myself ready and we went to the cemetery...its been sometime since i went.After that, we went for breakfast...i had roti prata(same like the rest of my family member) and teh-o...hmmm...YUMMY!! hehes...then we went market and buy the ingredient for Mee Rebus..lolz..Then we went home...about less than an hour,i got myself ready again..this time round is to go meet my honie and to buy present for my younger brother.We went to Bugis to find the present.Hmm...met honie and we train-ed to Lavender 1st..then we go Bugis...Although under renovation,Bugis is still packed with people..hehes.At Bugis,we went into this shades shop...i was like trying on different designs of the shades.hehes...i try a few designs and honie was like commenting on the shades...hahas...we agreed on one that we like and guess what...Honie bought for me the sHADES!!! OMG!! I LOVE THE SHADES>>ALOT....Thank YOu SO Muuuuuuccccchhhhh Honie!! Honie very sweet larh....he bought a present for my bro....My Bro likes the present...Thank You again honie..After buying the presents,we walk to find honie's things...hehes...i really enjoyed myself today honie...I hope you enjoyed urself as much as i do..Take care honie...i had the best time today!!

Orientation Programme @ RP (15-17Apr 09)

2009-04-18T10:22:00.010+08:00

i have not been updating for some time...been busy with school...for the past three days,i have been going to school to attend the Orientation Programme 0'9..its rather tiring but most importantly we had fun...yeah!

1st day

we have come together at first as strangers but as later part of the day..we have start to develop the bond among us...i belong to SAS 1 and my class is truely awesome..i love you guyz!! SAS 1 Oi !! sub sub oi !! i have wonderful ppl in my class..which consist of people from all over the Asian Region...there is ppl from China and also Myanmmar..wow!! Awesome!!1st day was tiring..we had our Principal's Challenge Cup whereby its like Amazing Race..we played many ice breaking games...lolz...like the caterpillar, ctrl + c and ctrl + v and many other exciting games...total we have 40 stations...My SL is Saiful..an i have other 24 frends joining me in a group..

at 4 plus,we had our debrief and HOME SWEET HOME!!

2nd day

was better than ystd...i had even more fun...more bonding were made...the bonding that is made btwn my class was becoming closer..i love tat ppl!! Saiful,our SL,he is super AWESOME!!! wohoo!! 3 cheers for Saiful...yeah! more abt him...he is very nice...caring...responsible leader...he cares alot abt class 1(coz he fan for us when we were super warm in the corridoor while waiting for our turn to play the game) he said..it is alright for him to be warm but not his class...he's awesome!!..CLASS 1 really enjoy the time with Saiful...many pics were taken but i wont upload just yet...need to get from the rest...we had tug-of-war on the 2nd day and my school got 2nd place and still leading...SAS ROXss!! we make our mascot and our photoblog contest as a school....its really fun doing that...continue with our principal's cup challenge...debrief and home sweet home..

3rd day

started at 0830am...straight away went to class which is at W47F...another new faces...wahaha!! have to remember so many names...lolz...i saw my new classmates for the next 1 semester...hmm...1st impression...omg!! hmm...my facillitators...Daniel,Jasmine and Afeeq...tere are nice ppl...when i came in to class,i was greeted by them...so cool...hehes...in class for abt 2hrs or so and back to home base...i love going to SAS homebase...united again as SAS 1 again...wehee!! i wave to everyone in my class as i entered the hall...all of them were just as happy as i am...love them so much!!! did some cheers....touch up on mascot and photoblog...wow!! sometime in the evening,the whole of TeamRepublic went down to the lawn to do the Domino Ripple..then we will know who is the champion for the Principal's Challenge Cup...its really fun... we perform all our cheers...we shout with all our might...and our effort is paid off when SAS is crowned the CHAMPION!!! then we had this concert put up by our TRCC members...the concert was good but SAS didnt stay there long coz we went to celebrate with our school back at our homebase...its more fun there...YEah!! we took pics...loved it sia..Wohoo!! at around 10 plus..then we went home...hehess...it was super fun!!

some of the pics..random order...

This is our Championship Cup...Wohoo!! oya..behind is SAS mascot...cute..i love the mascot..

This is SAS 1 babes...wohoo!! pretty...chio bu sia!! hahas...really larh..some of them really chio...hahas...hahas...candid pic...wehee...lolz...
This is some of our SAS 1 hunks...the rest MIA(missing in action)!!! wahaha...our SL..very cute..the one standing..Andrew..the most coolest guy...always smilling...

A group picture on 2nd day...wee~
Another group photo of SAS 1...together with our SL

Our SAS formation...wehehe! Awesome!!

Swimming with DEAR..YEAH!

2009-04-03T21:15:00.001+08:00

I wanted to go out so badly....haha...im super bored at home...i decided to go out...
i went swimming with dear today..its FUN ! ! i want to go swimming with dear again in future...can horh?
we were suppose to meet at 10am...hahas...did a wake up call at 9am...hehe...it was fun doing wake up call...hear dear's voice when half-asleep...so cute...hehes...anyways...i got up at 7am today...got ready and off to meet dear...reach destination at 9.50am...still early...so decided to wait for dear....then i call him ba....saying i reach le....hmm...then he was still having breakfast and asked me to go his house...i agreed n went up...it wasnt so difficult to find but i miss the house and i hear him calling me...hahas...i went to see dear's hamster....they are very small n very cute...i made myself comfortable and minutes later dear's mum came home...his mom is very nice,she made me a cup of drink and talk to me in Mandarin..hehe...i partially understand what she said...the rest of it...i was guessing all the way...then i went to look at the mini garden...its very beautiful...
after that we head to Jurong East Swimming Complex...hehe...im happy coz im still 17 and just pay for child fare....hehe...dear have to pay adult fare...hehes...but we dont care...we bought 2 child ticket,got change and went into the pool...hahas...i even suntan myself...hahas...now my skin is dark...kekeke...i saw many hunks in the pool...hehe...excited sia...hehes..there is one particular guy that i like...hehes...i was eyeing him all the way...then i pretend to suntan just to be beside him and get a good view of him...hehe...crazy me...hahas...dear was like smiling all the way...i went for short swim and sun tan with intervals...dear ask me some qns abt life.i answer the qns honestly without any secrets...hehe...im glad i got green light from my mum to have Chinese guy as my boyfriend and even husband...
~wehee~...so HAPPY sia ! !
then after that took pic in our swim outfit...lols...dear looks cute when he wear the goggles on his head n take the pic...i like the pic...hahas...then we go have a quick shower n head to have our lunch....Lunch was filling...
the pics that were taken today shall not be upload here...hehes...

TO DEAR..thank you so much for today...i really enjoy myself...i hope u enjoy urself too...in future,we go swimming again ba...take care...see u soon :)

[This is just for you]

2009-03-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

3 hari bagaikan 3 tahun bagi ku
tanpa kamu ku rasa kekosongan dan kehilangan
seperti pelangi yang tiada warnanya,
suram rasanya kerana
kamu adalah warna kepada pelangi ku

3 hari itu benar-benar meragut keriangan aku
rakan yang ada disini diumpamakan seperti orang asing
ku disini sentiasa doakan keselamatan kamu
ku akan menantikan kepulangan mu
dengan hati yang senang

it has been 3 restless days for me..thinking on ur whereabouts,thinking whether u are safe there...had many sleepless nights...all i could do is just to keep praying for ur safety when u are far far away from my eyes...even so...u are always near to my heart..i will be waiting for you to come back..and when u are back...i will be the happiest person on Earth...when u come back we will meet...thats for sure...i really miss you..ALOT!!
as much as i miss you,i also hope u miss me too...
its just i miss you so much that there is no words that i can put to describe my feelings... [smiles]

Come back safely and we will meet when u are back
u are the rainbow in my life,
without you..my life is grey..no colour..no fun...
See you Soon!!

Beloved Friend

2009-03-07T15:16:00.002+08:00

Seeing you is like seeing rainbow after rain...it is very beautiful and most importantly it is adored by many...Seeing rainbow makes my heart beats faster than it should...This rainbow is very different from normal rainbow because this rainbow is a human.This rainbow lives far far away from me but i can feel him very close to me...through this rainbow i have learnt alot abt life...something that i should have seen a long time ago...he made me see that there are alot more beautiful things than nasty things to see if only we find it...this rainbow moved me...this rainbow has made my life more colourful than it is now...to this rainbow...thank you so much...i appreciate how u make me see things in life...now i am making the change so that i will lead a happier life...thank you RAINbow!!

To my beloved friend...i have not stopped loving u...u too are just like rainbow that lights up my life..without you my life will be dull...no colours of life...no colours of joy...i enjoyed my days with you all my beloved friends...i miss you terribly and wishes to see you as soon as possible...no words can describe how much i miss you...if we were to meet my friends..i will for sure give you a I-Miss-You-My-Friend's hug...i hope u wont turn me down...coz u are my beloved frend...

see you soon my dear friend...

BAg.wahah!

2009-03-07T15:06:00.002+08:00

Long time didnt blog...wahaha...many things happened for the past days...both bitter and sweet..haha...but let's put the bitter aside and look at the sweet side...better that way...hmm...recently went out with honie..went to VivoCity...hmm...trained there...went around VivoCity..hahas..actually we went there to find my bag...well..we already knew the place but we still just walk around the place...hehe...then looking at the time...we decided to go and look for my bag...wehee!! i got my new bag...for school...wahaha...hmm...then we went to take our lunch together with honie's friend...wahaha...went to eat long john silver...it was fantastic...hehe...hmm...we sat eating our lunch for more than an hour...hehes...hmm...love spending my day with honie...well...actually they wanted to go somewhere else but i had to go home..hahas...late liao leh...hehe...honie and his friend send me all the way to Jurong East..so sweet of them...luv u guys...hahas..Thank you honie!! See ya soon!

RAndomness

2009-02-24T17:01:00.002+08:00

hahas...long time since i last post...hmm...main reason is i dont have anything to blog about except the upcoming enrolment period...hahas...its gonna be something new to me...meeting new people and some old faces...hahas..Singapore is small...u can find people rather easily...hahas..well..my days were good though there are some incident that happen that makes me irritated with some of them...

14 Feb-V Day!

2009-02-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

not been updating for some days...hehes..my last entry was on Valentine's Day...and today i'm going to post abt Valentine's Day which falls on 14 Feb,Sat...I met honie at JE...then we trained to Bugis...hehes...when we met its like 1 plus?doesnt matter larh wad time we meet...honie wait for me till he fall asleep...OMG!!hahas..reached Bugis...we went to Bugis Junction...i love the time spent with my honie...hehes...then honie bought me VAlentine's Day present...I SUPPEERRR LOVEEEEE it!!! hehe...THANK YOU HONIE!!!! After he bought me present,we went walking around Bugis...we have not been there so for long already...haix...busy mah...hmm...then honie said he was very hungry that he wants to faint...hahas...ok larh...then we head back to JE...went to IMM...to eat...wehee!!! i LOVE the Noodle there...DELICIOUS!!! we bought it and eat it together...while we really chat...abt things...hahas...really enjoy myself...after eating the bowl of noodle...we were super full...hahas...can bearly walk...hehe...TO Honie...THank you for the Valentine's Day present...i REALLY LOVE it!! miss & luv ya always...

i hope they will unite again..

2009-02-12T18:04:00.002+08:00

COUNTDOWN:2 DAYS TO VALENTINE's DAY
Hehe...left 2 more days sia...for those who are in a relationship will be the happiest on 14 Feb...coz its Valentine's Day...for those who is single...and available like me...hahas..wont see any importance to this date...hahas...yea..its true...haix...i think to be in a relationship is sweet and nice coz you have someone to love you,pamper you,gives atention to you...(besides ur family of course) haix...another year without having to celebrate Valentine's Day...*cries*
How does it feel to be in a relationship???
Issit cool???
Issit torturous???
issit hurtful???
its a qn from someone who has not been i relationship...hahas..
well...i think its not the time for me to look for one yet..so Valentine's Day is just another day that is celebrated by ppl who are in love...hehes...
anyways...went through alot this days...had to think alot...many things that happen that i can use as a learning experience..i will burst into tears whenever i think of it...it shouldn't have happen...they are meant to be together...they are the ones that i love dearly and it happened to them...why is this happening??? If there is still a ray of hope...pls let them be happily united again...if there isn't..then i will just be praying for the best...

2009-02-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

started my day as early as 6.45am...hahas...hit the showers...damn cold sia...hehe...then wear my comfortables clothes and off for my training...hehes...went down for a game of badminton...wow! it was super tiring...now my hands are super weak...hahas...blame on me coz i push myself too far...nearly had a fall just now while playing...well...its normal to fall...after that went back home and out again to the market...walked there...hahas...super tiring...bought suff that is needed and head for breakfast...wehee!! the lime juice that i had...hahas...its sour to the MAXX...hehes...well...its fun though...currently im on medication...so yea...erm...then as per normal...did my household chores...soon enough it was afternoon..my lunch was at 5 plus...eat what we cooked earlier...eat as a family...was fun...there goes night time...most peaceful time of the day...its where i can enjoy silence...i can do my workouts...so yea...well...just finish my workout though...hahas...tmr is gonna be a wonderful day...looking forward to tmr...okies..im totally beat...have a full day ahead of me tmr...so see ya!!

needa break

2009-02-04T20:56:00.005+08:00

hahas...another long day...its always that same old thing....hahas...well...i am going to take a vacation where there is free from noise....all thats there is tranquility....its just that i wont get bored of...hear the swaying of the trees....hear the cool breeze....the water....the waves....all of those...i really miss them...loving being with nature....simply relaxing my mind...alot of things that is going through my mind...hahas...i'm afraid i will be over-loaded...hehe...as for ppl...i want to be with the ppl that can ease my mind...

some pics.

something to ponder

2009-02-04T12:03:00.004+08:00

i just dun understand about some ppl...here i am trying to care about them as how a friend should care about one another....there are ppl in this world who does not appreciate what you are trying to do...they find you always asking the same questions over and over again...and they tell you that you are always asking the same question again and again..well...i respected their wish and i try not ask them those qns...i guess i will stop caring for those kind of ppl...should i?? they do not appreciate my effort in wanting to just care abt them as a friend would do...so thats it...pushing me away or avoiding me is not the solution...just tell me..."hi..just stop caring about me.I can find a friend that will care for me better than you". Then i would not bother you since thats ur wish...i just dun wan ppl to be tortured by being friends with me...i will feel bad abt it...so if u feel that way...then i guess i am a bad friend to you...forgive me for all the wrong doing i did to you...
Look...i am naturally like that....i do that to all of my friends and u are not the exception...i care for them like they are my own siblings...i give my best to make them happy,make them feel loved...make them feel that they are impt in this world...make them less-troubled...i try my best to help all my friends and u are no exception...lately,i have this feeling that u are pushing me away or avoiding me...why is that?? did i do anything to offend ur feelings??

CAre??

2009-02-01T23:44:00.001+08:00

Blogging is one way i can express my deepest feelings...i know my post is not read by others but thats fine...its ppl's choice to read or not...even if they know what u are going through...will they even care to ask you...embrace u and say everything will be fine...hahas...i think that will not happen...im just dreaming of those things...right now...i am happy becoz they are happy...to see them happy makes me happy too though sometimes it hurts me...i have to put away my sorrow...hide it from them...i know im being stupid...but i cant bear to see my loved ones being sad...i have to be strong for them...life has to go on even if sometimes u find that living ur life is meaningless...the word Believe for me is very important...sometimes the things that i believe in might not be what others might believe...they take me as a joker who is only talking crap...they did not believe in me...i tried gluing pieces of my heart together but it seems the more i glue them together,the more this pieces from my heart will fall off...
**Deepest sorrowness that i am feeling now**

Vivocity2

2009-01-31T16:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
Me went out with honie...he called me at 11am to say that we will be meeting at 2pm...and that we are to meet at SP McDonalds...i slowly got ready to meet my honie...and met honie at McDonalds...he had his lunch already...so we head down to Vivocity...hahas...it was a wonderful ride to and fro from Vivocity...had lots of laugh...hehes...erm...just love it larh...hmm...purpose of going to vivo is too accompany honie to buy a present for his friend whose birthday is coming soon...hehe...somthing from River Island...Wow!! Cool...its a checkerboard shawl...after buying,we walk around vivo for awhile and then we head to JE...we get to meet different kind of people...at JE,we were damn thisty after all those jokes and laugh and decided to buy bubble tea...mine is honey ice blend and my honie's is chocolate ice blend...wow!! its heavenly...quench my thist...hehes...then i took bus 99 and head home...we said bye to one another and off i go in the bus...had a wonderful day though...and tiring too...
Today
Nothing much that happen today...just got up and do normal stuff...hahas...complete my task very quickly today...just got the posting result yesterday...and yeah...i did make it to somewhere...hehes...Cool!! well...i will be slowly buying stuff that is needed for poly...maybe soon ba...
hahas...im feeling very beat...tats all for now...*smiles*

Lost

2009-01-29T14:52:00.001+08:00

some days since i last blog...i dun have the mood to write and nothing to write...hahas...a few days ago...i lost one of my relative...im sad about it but i tell myself everyone who is alive will be gone one day...its just a matter of time...have to just let it go...will meet them in Heaven soon...*smiles*
didnt really go out much...been busy with my workout...hahas...hmm...yea...hope to nice results...I really miss someone...i hope he knows that...hahas...well...hope he got alot of fun when he was away...planning to meet him soon but i guess i cant becoz he is having his exams pretty soon...So to him...ALL THE BEST!!!
Play hard...Study hard...Score well too...*smiles* Hope 2 See you soon...yea..

VivoCity

2009-01-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY...
I had a wonderful time with my honie...We went out together after so long...I enjoyed myself very much when we go out together...We went to Vivocity...it was cool...its like only my 2nd time there...hahas...me n honie went round and round Vivocity...from basement all the way up...hahas...visit most of the shops there...hehes...super fun..hehes...time passes really fast when we are having fun...when i look at my watch,its 2pm...then the 2nd that i look,its already 4pm...hahas...i found a few nice shops that i would like to go again...foe example,there is is lava lamp shop...then there is a shop where u can make ur own teddy bear...it was super fun...i just became like a kid when i went there...lolz...erm...went to toy shop,hahas...we played all the stuff there...hehes...then we went to The Cocoa Tree shop...and bought gummy bears,sweets and some chocolates...the chocolate was heavenly...OMG!! its delicious...then again at the chocolate shop,we played with the chocolates...we saw this cute frog and i went "croak...croak".Honie look at me and laughter can be heard...hehes...plus...the ppl working there too was smiling all along...hahas...it was a total crazy day...then honie wanted to go Bugis...but it was already very late...haix...blame the time...lolz...Honie was hungry and we went to M'donalds to eat...initially we wanted to eat Long John Silver or Burger King...but it was super packed with people...so just went to eat M'donalds...he ate McSpicy meal and i ate McChicken...it was super fun...met many kinds of ppl...all with different style...character...face...attitude...wow! after eating lunch together,honie said he wanted to buy a ring and we went to the shop...he bought this very nice tiger eye ring...its lovely...both of us like the ring...After that we head home...in the train...we were kindda pissed with this girl...she keeps on running in the mrt and her mom was like chatting all the way...hahas...we keep pur cool and just enjoy our ride home...so much fun...on our way back...honie took out this piece of paper n tore it into half...and i looked at him and ask what is he going to do wif it...he said just wait n see...hmm...i waited and it was so lovely of him to make me a paper tulip origami...wah!! i love it...*smiles* To honie...Thank you for everything...I enjoyed it...You made my day...Luv ya my honie...

TODAY
woke up feeling very tired from yesterday...Vivo trip and at nite i went to bbq aat east coast and only sleep at 3.30am...haix...tired sia...OMG!! then i receive the sad news...one of my relative has passed away...was rather saddened by it but still have to accept the fate...after visiting,we went home and just spend the time with my family...was a tiring day...To all..."HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!" May all the wishes come true...*smiles*

sleepless nites

2009-01-20T13:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday,19 January
It was a day that i really felt strongly about...hahas...hmm...woke up early and went to do my daily routine...household chores of course...then i get ready...looking for jobs...i went out today...with two purpose...well,the 1st purpose is to find a job...and the 2nd is to buy presents...went from shops to shops...went to buy presents and then i look for jobs...still no luck but i will try again...after tired looking for job,then i went into this particular shop and i felt that there is this feeling...a very strong one...saying that he is really inside...hehes...as i went more inside to the shop,the feeling grew stronger...till one point where my heartbeat just stop for a few seconds...i saw him in front of me...with his body...so muscular...OMG!! i simply cant resist the sight of him...i froze there...not knowing what to do...hahas...then i told myself...just watch him from far would be enough fo me...i would not wannt to disturb him as he was working...i cant forget his sight...mesmerised by the way he walk,the way he talk...easy said everything about him is wonderful...hahas...well...told myself this feeling cant go on...its too risky...i might as well hide in my shell and just watch him from far...watch him from a safe distance...making sure he is not aware...

Today...
woke up late coz i slept late last night...it is almost a week now...i cant seem to sleep at night...my body is not tired,my eyes are not tired,everything is not tired though i did alot of movement in the morning and some workouts...i wonder what is the reason...day and night...i dun feel tired...after getting ready,me n mum went to market to get something for tonight's feast-my younger sister's b'dae...so for her..."HAPPY 12th Birthday!!" celebrating her b'dae at home again...ystd went to Burger King to celebrate her b'dae...then today its at home...hahas...just one wish for her..."May she do well in her PSLE this year"

swimming request

2009-01-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

i've been busy all this while....trying to find a job...hehes..well...haven found any yet...but i will keep on trying...never give up..*smiles* hmm...well...i have already submitted my application form for my tertiary studies in one of the polytechnics...guess i am not fated to go college...hahas...not smart enough...i wonder how do they study...hmm...well...im just glad to be able to make it to polytechnic...there is only one word to describe what im feeling when i was sittinig in the hall waiting for the results to be release...SCARED...hahas...well...i make it!! hooray!! now just waiting for posting results...well...i have been through alot this few days...guess it thought me to be more matured than who i was last time...i spend most of my time trying to understand things which i never understand...well..gladly to say i have made progress...and its working...hmm...i am terribly missing my friends...well...i understand they are busy...what to do...just bear with the situation...hahas...well...guess im going for a swimming or sun-tanning abit...it feels good to be under the sun...hehes...well...anyone coming?? i will be glad to have someone to accompany me...tats all for now..byes

O levels results

2009-01-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

Finally the day that i have been waiting for has finally arrived...hahas...its the results...Well...hooray! i graduate from Secondary School...and i will be going for my tertiary studies...hmm...have to choose wisely...its gonna be a 3years course...well...overall...i was rather happy with my results though im expecting a better result...its ok...gonna be happy with it and use it to go poly...hahas...reach school yesterday...i can see all those anxious faces..hahas...well...it was the last time i wore uniform and for once i felt very proud of it....i feel like i dun want to take it off...hahas...well...knowing that i have graduated from Hua Yi Secondary...i feel both sad and happy...Happy becoz im going to poly...to further my studies...sad becoz i will miss all dear teachers...OMG!! i will surely miss them...to All my teachers...I LOVE ALL OF YOU!! THANK YOU For TEACHING ME...i will come back sometime to visit...To HYSS top student...CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Well...im just glad that i pass every of my subjects...happy!
its not fantastic results but at least i knew i tried and gave my best shot...so i have no regrets anymore...i thank the Almighty coz i got what i wanted-to go poly...so i got it...here...now...i have to choose the choose the course that i want to pursue in...something that relates to my future...by going to the course,it will bring me closer to my career...so..yea...wish me luck for the posting results..
-Peace Out-

Dedication

2009-01-11T13:07:00.004+08:00

TMR!! the day O level results will be release...hahas...anxious....well...tmr will be getting results at 2pm...i wish every candidate taking the results tmr will pass with flying colours especially me...hehe...hmm...yea...to my schoolmates,i miss you guys...so see u guys tmr....to my dear frends,i really miss you ppl...you are always in my heart...i will remember you where ever i go...and i hope u do the same too...

Just wanna dedicate a song to my dear friend...Just wanna tell him dun ever give up...Stay strong...Will be there for you when u need someone to talk to...I like the lyrics of this song and decide to dedicate to you...its very meaningful...Hope u enjoy this soong like i enjoy it...always listen to it when i'm kindda down...so Enjoyz..*smiles*

Ur friend,

=Iqah=

BassHunter-I can walk on water,I can Fly

SP OPEN HOUSE

2009-01-09T20:08:00.004+08:00

Heys...went to Singapore Polytechnic's Open House....hahas...two words...Crazy Hotness!! hahas...well...i met a few hunks or should i say good-looking guys...hehes...Well...most of them are Chinese ba....except for one malay guy that caught my attention...hehes...Hmm...met some of my classmates there as well...reach SP at 10.3oam...not really alot of ppl ba...receive call from Jinn Chyau and we somehow play a mini-game...hahas...trying to find each other...hahas...i know its Lame larh...but tats just for the fun of it...hehe...Jinn Chyau is very kind...he brought me around SP...introducing me to the place and i find it interesting....then when we got every place covered, we look at the time and its really early for lunch...so we went to the library to chill there for awhile...so we just rest n chill in the libraby...he got GEMS to attend to at 1pm and he ask me to tag along to the GEMS too...at 1st i was scared coz actually i wasnt suppose to be there...but in the end i entered the room and just go on with the lesson...hahas...guess wad? i enjoyed the lesson...its very fun to be in coz the lecturer,Dr Cui is a hilarious person...we laugh at the way he speaks...hehes...erm...the lesson ended very fast...haix...its suppose to end at 3pm but in the end it ends at 2pm...haix...reason being Dr Cui has to attend to somethings...i was like....aww...the lesson ended too soon...well...i learn about Value of Diversity...abt Quinine...Taxol...etc..it was something new for me...though he speaks with a different accent,i could still figure out what he said...hahas...hmm...after class...called Fikri...met up with him...3 of us had lunch together and chat alot...i really miss Jinn Chyau and Fikri...glad to meet them today...To Jinn Chyau...Thank you for bringing me around SP...I enjoyed going around the school with you...Thank You!!

O level Results

2009-01-08T14:24:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!!! O Level results will be out on Monday,12 January 2009, at 2pm....Argh!! hehe....excited for the results....hehe....hope the candidates and myself will be happy with their results....well...its left with 3.5 days more....hehe...hahas...

A Fun day travelling

2009-01-07T18:21:00.002+08:00

today...had a long day...hahas....woke up in the morning and rush down to Marsiling....go to my granny's place...long journey by bus...sat there for one hour plus in 178....wah!! butt pain sia...hehes...erm...then went to Causeway Point with granny to pay her TV liciense...Thank God the bill haven due date yet...if not...go up and down to the court...haix...dun want that to happen....then we went walking around to Civic Centre...granny bought me a dress...hehes...Thanks Granny!! hehe...then i bought myself tops...its white...so yea...erm...its cool..going to wear it soon...maybe to poly open house...hehes...then we rush to Yew Tee...to have our lunch there....WOw!! Lunch was super delicious....hahas...i ate Nasi Lemak with some gravy...dunno why the shop sell like that...hahas...nvm...its delicious...i finished it since i skipped breakfast...hehes...then after that i head down to Jurong East....hahas...then i just walk around....when there is no where else to go...i decide to go home....while waiting for 99 to come, i receive a call from mum...she ask me to buy some beancurd and long beans...hehe...run errands for her...all the time...hahas....i head down to the market....took 99...on my way home...i was so shocked and happy...I saw Steven...hehe...the handsome,tall and cool guy...hehes...it has been awhile since i last saw him...hehe...i miss Steven sey...hahas...we exchange "Hi" with each other...hahas...then we also exchange "Goodbyes"...hahas...tiring day indeed...travelling....hahas...but actually its fun...hehe...
=Peace Out=

to u my friends..

2009-01-06T19:36:00.003+08:00

never felt so lonely in my life before....my friends...they are all busy doing their stuff....they are enjoying themselves definitely....i am happy if my friends are happy....like i use to say "To see other's happiness also bring happiness to me" yupz...its still tat way though i feel very lonely...i dun blame them...they have their own life to run....who am i to them? do i even exist in their heart? have they all forgotten abt me? need an answer to that...yupz...need an answer...they are all busy people...do they have time for me? i guess what i fear the most is happening...i want to escape from the situation...its never then same...yes...we grow and there are alot of commitment here and there...sorry friends...i think im greedy...i wanted my friends to remain as my friends...not others...im sorry...i think i have to be a new me...who is not selfish...to share my friends with others...i will be sad to see my friends having a fun time with others but not me...is there anything wrong with me?am i so boring?can't i be like ur other friends whom u can laugh with??...play with??...chat alot with....??friends i do need answers from u...coz thats the only way i can improve myself....

yours,
iqah

2009-01-04T16:24:00.003+08:00

do considered what they have done to me...well...not only me....but others too....dun have to say when u dun want to....dont have to do when dun want to....are ppl just some burden to them??...have they consider if they are a burden to ppl??....for those who read this post and not understand.......nvm.... becoz u wont understand and will nvr understand...simply becoz u are not in my shoes...hahas....wad a great laugh i had!! the call....they are just fake....a name which is used to confuse ppl...stop doing it when u feel u are being forced to do....all they can think is pleasing themselves while hatred....suffering...miserable is felt by ppl....hahas....such a world...its so unfair!

HAppy 2009!!!

2009-01-01T13:14:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!!! its 2009...wehee~looking back at 2008,it has been a challenging year for everyone and including me...hahas...we had to go through many obstacles....many unhappiness....many emotional breakdown....well...lets start anew...with new resolution....with new hope...Haapy 2009 to everybody!!! May 2009 be a good year ahead....

Bolt

2008-12-24T17:44:00.004+08:00

I LOVE BOLT!!!!! I love the movie so much....i cried while watching the movie...its very meaningful to me....it teaches me about friendship and loyalty....Two thumbs up for this movie BOLT...i love it...Should watch it...its Nice...*winks* well...today is Christmas eve...WOw!! Another few days we will be welcoming 2009....wow! unbelievable...so fast...i feel like time passes really fast nowadays....i am terribly missing my frends...to my honie,if u are reading this...i miss you alot...to my close friend,I miss u too*smiles*..i cant wait to see you...hahas...cant wait...hopefully i still got time to see you ppl...i really miss u all....will be going gym soon....but still dunno when...hehes...just wanna work out and get myself some muscles maybe...hehes...later will be going out for shopping...hehes...tmr...going to ECP to celebrate my Christmas there...I am looking forward to tmr...Hopefully it will be a sweet and memorable one...okies...gtg...getting ready to go shoopping...byes..

New Dumb Bell

2008-12-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

wEhee....i just got a new dumb bell...its lovely...i love it!!! Now i can slowly build some muscles...hahas...well...my new dumb bell is not bought but made...its special to me...my dad made it for me...Thank you Dad!! I love my dad!!! hehe...wehee...hmm...i have to start slow in training my muscles...haix...gonna be tough...hope i can do it well...but i don't want to make my body so big...its just for my fitness...hehes...i'm looking forward to go to gym...hehe...weheehee....Looking forward to this Christmas Day too...im going to be in East Coast...hahas...anyone of u going there??Next mth the result will be out...the tension is rising though...i wish every candidate taking O level results will pass with flying colours..Amin..

Library

2008-12-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

ytd went to library with honie....i went to return my book...the story is nice to read...full of suspense....had a happy ending...just like fairy tales...i like to read those that have happy endings..hehes...after going to return the library,we went in to borrow another book...after doing so,me n honie went to IMM...to have sushi...hahas...dunno why i LOVE sushi so much...hahas...we went to eat the sushi and bought a drink at 7 eleven...hahas...i had stomach ache after drinking it....hehes...know why?? honie mix alot of drink together....we have coke,ice lemon tea,100 plus,sprite inside the drink....hehes....we paid $1.60 for the drink...hahas...it was cool doing that...should try more often??hehe...i enjoy going out with my frends....its one of the way i can relax myself....i think next outing will be to the gym...but i still dunno when to go...most likely i'm going with a frend too....going alone is super BORED!!! hahas....maybe i will message honie or my frend to go with me then...hehes...next month will the release of O level results...I am praying and hoping for the best bcoz i've given my best...All the Best for the result...hehes...i am loving purple more and more...weeeheee!!!

suara hati

2008-12-19T17:53:00.002+08:00

Kesedihan yang menguliti aku ini tidak akan hilang di dalam sekelip mata...
Ia akan terus bergelora selagi aku bernyawa...
HAruskah aku menamatkan riwayat aku untuk menghapuskan gelora itu???
Semakin aku renungkan kisah hidup aku,aku bertambah lemas...
Lemas dengan segala-galanya...lemas dengan keadaan diriku...
Bilakah keadaan ini akan berlalu ataukah ia akan sentiasa di situ tanpa akhirnya...
Aku dibiar terluka...seperti sebatang kayu di lautan yang hanya mengikuti arus air....ke sini tidak...kesana pon tidak....haha....aku jerit tapi tiada siapa yang dengar...Orang tidak faham akan kepedihan ini...mereka dengar tetapi lepas itu mereka lupa...itulah hakikatnya...tidak akan aku jumpa insan yang benar-benar jujur dengan kata-katanya...klau aku jumpa...kemungkinan dia tidak akan dapat aku miliki....aku sudah pasrah dengan kehidupan aku ini...hidup yang hanya diselimuti dengan kesedihan yang akan dtg apabila aku sedang bergembira....Saat aku bergembira hanyalah seketika....itu realitinya....

2008-12-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hehe...its my 200th post...hahas...that means my blog post is 2 century's old...hehes....hahas...erm...tmr...going to be another day....i will be going out..to the library...to return my book...i have just complete reading it...i am now addicted to novels...hahas...so tmr i am going to spend some time there to read novels...hehes...now i love reading!!! hahas...may this habbit of reading be with me...hehe...i cant wait to go BBQ with my family...hopefully everything permits and nothing go wrong on the last minute....Amin...erm...today is the release of the N level results....i heard it was well done...Congratulations!!! I hope O levels result is also as good as N levels or even better...

Exploring the new JP...

2008-12-15T18:45:00.007+08:00

heys...just got back from Jurong Point....haha...i had alot of fun going around the extension of Jurong Point...hehe...it was amazing...alot more shops there...hehe...erm...i went there with my good friend...Jinn Chyau...hahas...met Jinn Chyau at 1pm...we were suppose to meet outside Breadtalk but when i got there,it was totally a new JP...hahas...in the end we met outside 7 eleven store...hahas....then we went into the mall...walk around....we really go explore the new JP...from B1 all the way to lvl 2...hehes...when i glance at my watch...it was 4.30pm and we were still walking around the mall...hahas...well...lucky we had our lunch earlier....i had carrot cake and Jinn Chyau had noodles...hahas...dunno wad is it call...then i had a call from my grandmother and my mum....well....she just wanted me to buy her some food home...hahas...she wants mee goreng....hahas...well...yes...i bought for her...erm...my grandmother...well...she call to say that our appointment was cancelled....so...i was like...okie larh...i dun have to rush to CCK and make my way to Woodlands....hehe...Thank You God!! we came across this wallet shop...it is made from stingray skin...i was attracted to the design of the wallet....its fantastic....i did learn something about the wallet...like how is it made...its cool....then we went to Mini Toons and Jinn Chyau bought for me a cute mushroom handphone cover....hehe...its my Christmas present...Thank You Jinn Chyau!!!! its really cute...hehes...after buying it...we walk around for some time...before heading home,we did take pictures.....its fun spending time with my good friend,Jinn Chyau... some pics below...

This is my Christmas present from Jinn Chyau...mine is the mushroom one and his is the turtle one....LOVE IT VERY MUCH!!! hehes...it very cute...

this picture is taken in the Mini Toon by him...hehe....Winnie The Pooh in penguin suit....hehe....VERY CUTE!!!

Twilight&Visit my aunt

2008-12-13T16:02:00.003+08:00

hahas...today i woke up at 7am....haix....went to the market with mum and dad....hehe...it was cool...hmm...after that we had breakfast together....then we head home....did household chores....as usual....hahas....u noe gals....hahas....they have to do that....hmm....after at around 2 plus...my family ate lunch together....hehes....watch twlight....its really nice....hmm....cool...then here i am blogging....hmm...i really miss my frends....i want to see them but im not sure when are they free....haix....hmm....later going out to see my aunt....i am rather excited to see her....hmm....i just hope she is fine....hehes....really miss her....she just reach Singapore at about 12noon today....hmm....she just came back from Mecca...hmm...i would like to go one day....okies....going off to get ready to see my beloved aunt....hahas..byes...

piece of my broken heart

2008-12-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

feel all alone...
no one to be with...
no one to laugh with...
all that is left is just memories...
memories of us...so happy together...
wish i could just erase it but i cant...
keeps flashing in my mind...
i even try to do things that i dont think i ever tried...
it is so clear that i am hurt by the words that was being said to me...
i feel like there is a razor blade that is used to cut my heart...very deep...
i tried screaming...but no one can hear me...
since no one can hear me,i will just continue screaming all my heart out...
hoping that after i am tired of screaming,my pain,my sorrow,my sadness will go away
but no...i was wrong...totally wrong...my pain,my sorrow,my sadness
is still lingering around me making me choke...
i am helpless and i cant fight anymore...
i am just too weak to even get up on my feet...
why does this have to happen to me...ppl may say they understand...
but how much do they understand...its not the same...
i dont know how much longer i can take it...
hopefully i just dont kill myself before my time comes to leave this place...
too devastated...too down...too sad...

i will try to keep smiling to u all my beloved friends...but do bear in mind that even if i smile,my pain,my sorrow,my sadness will not go away...
but my beloved frends do cheer me up...i may look happy but actually im not...
no matter wad im trying to forget everthing that happen to me in the past...
to u my beloved frends...help me by forgetting my past...love me like you love ur love ones,treasure me like how i treasure u,my beloved fren..accept me just like how i accept who u are...may this misery of mine come to an end soon...
O Allah...pls help this creature of urs...

this post is a piece of my broken heart...

Walk down the path

2008-12-09T21:12:00.001+08:00

i walk down the path..
thinking that there will be someone who will follow me..
but when i turn around..
i saw nobody..
feeling so down that i can't even console myself
will any kind ppl out there console me??

now i will not hope..
i will not even dream about it..
the more i hope and dream about it..
the more i will be driven to the dark path where happiness doesn't exist

its lucky that i found out early..
i just try to distract myself from remembering this hurtful feeling of mine
each time i try to forget,
the scene keeps playing itself...
the words suddenly become audible to my ears
i just dunno what to feel right now..

why do i keep doing things that i do not want to do??
why do i still love when my heart says hate??
why do i still care when my heart has been hurt many times??
its always why...why and why??

i just hope to forget the name that has always been in my lips and in my mind
i am scared to love ppl..too scared..
at least i know i tried...and i know i did express my feelings...
now..i dont have any regrets or doubts...
its all clear now that he likes me just as a frend...
fair enough..though i'm hurt but trust me,i will never end the friendship that we have built over just a few months that we have been together in secondary school...to be precise sec 5..
i just hope whoever you choose later in ur life will be the women whom you love,treasure and that you and her will be happy together...
i may be crying but i am happy to see you happy even if i know that i did not make you my own...you are and will always be in my mind...we will be friends...

knowing that i am alone now..
i walk down the dark path again..
waiting to see if there is any ray of happiness
that will shine throughout my entire life..
o Allah..please help me..
i do not wish to be Alone in this planet..

Hari Raya Haji

2008-12-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

hehex...today is hari raya haji....hahas...yesterday went to m'sia...i went back to kampong and sleep there for a night and went back to s'pore today....hahas...its nice to celebrate at kampong with ur family.....hahas...i meet my Busu....argh!!! I love Busu...hehe...erm...i gave Busu his present from Bali and i was glad that Busu likes it...hehes...hopefully if i can get to travel again,i will buy more for Busu and for the ppl that i love....hehe...waiting for the result to come out in January....hehe....may i pass with flying colours and go to my desired poly and also go to my desired course...Amin...okies...Peace Out

Barongan

2008-12-06T20:36:00.003+08:00

a wonderful Saturday....called honie yesterday becoz i want to meet him...hahas....miss him sia!! hahas...i met him at his block and we head to the regional library....he return some books and borrowed some more books for his mum....i borrowed myself a book...knowing that its has been a long time since i last touch a book...hahas....hehes....after borrowing we went to Bugis by train....erm...was rather crowded....have to squeeze alittle....then half-way through the journey,we saw our ex-huayians...happens to be our senior....hahas...we had a hearty chat...hehes...well....she is heading to East Coast Park....the alight at Bugis mrt station and we said goodbye to her...we went to bugis and we walk around there....hahas...then we went to IMM to eat sushi....it was heaven to get to eat sushi...hahas....honie bought black pepper chicken and we find a spot to eat...hahas...its fun...we chatted...after eating,we went to Daiso...hahas...then we saw Mdm Adlin with her husband and her child....hehes....after that went to popular and then we head home....not missing out we took some pictures together....Honie...i hope you like the barongan...
*******************PEACE OUT*****************************************************

my trip to BALI(nov 30 to dec 4)

2008-12-05T15:55:00.005+08:00

heys....im back in Singapore....it feels so GREAT to be back in Singapore...hahas....i went for a holiday...it was a wonderful vacation....my uncle's family,my grandmother,my brother and me went to Bali for a week...hehe...its super nice!! i got the chance to take photos but i will not post it just yet....let me briefly tell you abt the vacation..

DAY 1-Day 4
reach Bali at night....around 10 plus...the hotel ppl picked us up and brought us to the apartment which looks like a 5-star hotel....wow!!! hahas...we went to check the aartment...hehes...it was wonderful....next morning....have to get up early and went to Kintamani....tis is the mountanious place...there is volcano and according to the tour guide,the volcano has erupted 24 times...hahas...then we went to have our lunch at the Muslim restaurant there....its buffet....hahas...u can eat to ur heart's content....hehe....it was very cold there....i was shivering there....hahas....next stop we went to Kuta....tis is the place for shopping!!!! i was like....OH GOODNESS!! its shopping paradise....hehes...my family was enjoying themselves....i am happy to see my family happy...we went looking around Kuta and eventually we bought somethings....hahas....i learnt the skill of bargaining...hahas...then it was my turn to try....hahas...thanks to my aunt who taught me tis....hehe...we get to see the rice terrace and then we went to buy fruits and brought to our apartment and we ate dinner....it was delicious..day 2 was enjoyable...the tour guide,Mika,is a humorous man...hahas...he made us laugh and he made the trip an interesting one..hahas...then we head home and get some rest....next morning on day 3,we went out earlier...tis time Mr Small bring us around....he is Mika's cousin....Mr Small is a rather shy man....he does not talk much to us...hahas...rather boring actually....haha...we went Bedugul and Tanah Lot....Bedugul is a nice place....next stop is the Tanah Lot....its another shopping paradise....hehe....i went to find Barongan for my honie...hahas...Thank You GOD becoz i found the barongan....hehe...i picked the one that is very scary....hahas....Honie,if you are reading my post,i hope you like the barongan that i bought for you...once i got the barongan,i was totally happy...hehes....then we went to batik factory....its nice to see how they make the batik....i bought shirts for my dad....i also bought belangkol(a kind of songkok) for my beloved dad....hahas...erm....bought something for my mum too....hahas...we went for dinner....tis time its at the beach...we actually sit at the beach there....i was happy because i could see the sunset at the beach....the view was wonderful....w ate seafood and costs about $1000 singapore dollars...rupiah is around 1 million plus...hehes...then at night we went to Kuta again....hahas...this is where we really shop like crazy....hehes....my aunt bought for me a Polo t-shirt.....butterfly blouse....bali t-shirt.....hard rock t-shirt.....vietnamese pants....bali cap....necklaces....its all under her expenses...hahas..it was really a shopping paradise if u knoe how to bargain....its worth it....yea!! morning of day 4...we didnt really go out....tired...hahas...well...i went for a swim in the morning....it was relaxing....i love it....

day5
i was rather sad coz we are leaving on day 5....i feel like 5 days come and go real fast....hahas...we check out at 6pm and head on to the international airport at Denpasar...waited for our flight at 10.15pm....hahas....we reach in singapore at abt 1.30am friday morning...i was super tired....we went BK and eat....i am happy to be back in s'pore....i miss BALI....hahas....hahas....erm....next 2 years....maybe going Bangkok...hahas....

A GREAT DAY!!

2008-11-28T19:39:00.011+08:00

i had a super great day today....hahas....i went out today....i met my honie....hahas...erm...yea...while i was getting ready...honie called me...he said his friends,Jenny and Akiff(did i spell it correctly??) is coming along....i was like...okie...sure come along then...we met at Dover Mrt station...it was tiring waiting for them...hahas...in the end....i saw another friend of honie...Iffa...haha...unexpected to see her....hahas...we were off to our destination....BuGis...haha....the journey was indeed rather boring at first but it turned to be fun....hahas....Jenny...im sorry coz i think i had frightened you with my "melatah"...sorry...erm...we chat along the way....it was a long journey.....hahas....reach Bugis,we alight...then we went around....we went to bugis st....hahas....i did buy something.....honie bought me a Super EarLY Christmas present....hahas...he bought for the other gals as well....its nice of him....Thank you for the earings!!!! I LOVE it....we went from shop to shop....hahas....went up and down....and i decided to buy something for myself....so i got myself a watch...hahas...hmm..actually i wanted to buy the white watch but i got something else...nvm...i will come back another day and hopefully i will buy...haha....its so nice....and at the watch shop...i saw this ang-mo...he is so cute and hot!! hehe....but not interested...intially wanted to go Fuluso but in the end didnt go but went for window-shopping instead...overall i think Akiff is a nice person....i like to look at his eyes....hahas....he has nice eyes....hmm...jenny is nice...and so is iffa...they are fun ppl to be with....*peace* hahas....it was really a nice day today...hehes....we went off from Bugis at around 4.15pm...hahas....reach Jurong East around 5 plus....cant remember wad time....then went to popular to get some book but cant find....in the end we went to have bubble tea...hahas...super refreshing....hehes....then me and honie head home....we chat along the way home....Thank you honie for today...i so love it....here is some random picture that i took....

These are the things that were bought....hehe....i bought the watch....and my honie bought for me the two earings...hehe....i LOVE it!!!! Thank You Honie!! Luv Ya..

hehe....its me posting with one of the earing....hehe...
me again...posting with another earing...hehe...

hahas....just me....in red and the black cardigan...and the "A" necklace(blink2)....hehes..

Orites....tats all....byes...

what i wanted to say...

2008-11-28T08:11:00.003+08:00

heys...life has not been really good since school ended....hahas...now,i can seldom see my schoolmates....haix....but its a lucky thing that i got their handphone numbers...at least i can still sms them...hehe...two thumbs up...hahas...it is great if u care for ppl and u urself being cared by others....the feeling is like...wow!! thank you God because there is ppl who cares abt me...but sometimes the care that you give to ppl is mistaken for something else....they think that you love them....hahas...its weird how ppl think....well....i dun blame them entirely though....hahas...maybe the way i care for them makes them think that i am hinting to them....well...all i wanted to do is just care for you ppl....so dun worry...i am just caring for you ppl...im not showing or hinting you to be my boyfriend...hehes...anyway...i am just clearing the doubt to ppl....hehes...going on holiday soon i think....hopefully can go somewhere else....after coming back from holiday....i have to find a job and i have appointment with the doctor at outram....haix....have to go still....i dun know where to start looking for a job....haix...kindda tough but i will give it a try....well...im not really rotting at home coz i learnt alot from my mum....hehe....i learn how to cook certain dishes...well...maybe one day i will try cooking wad i learn from my mum....besides the cooking lesson,its kindda bored staying at home...cant always go out coz my money running low...hahas...nvm...i will find a job very soon...hopefully i can get to work...maybe at popular bookstore or something like that....wish me luck!!!

long post....

2008-11-25T12:32:00.004+08:00

hahas....im still JOBLESS!!!! ARGH!!! JOBLESS=Less Money to Spent=Less Shopping....hahas....OMG!!! i need to find a job soon....hehe....most probably around december than can start finding one....as for now...hmm...i want to enjoy first...hehe.....hmm....im glad that my friends are back from their trip safely....i am also glad to know that they enjoyed themselves....TO Jinn Chyau,if u happen to read my blog....i am happy to be there for you....that is what i can do for my friends....i will always be there for you and not only you but to all my other friends....my door is always open to help all my friends...i will try my best to help all my friends....i will continue to stay that way....Thank you for all the things that you have done for me....i am greatful to have known you and actually i became ur friend...thank you...

i am not so sure abt my feelings right now....its a mixed feelings.....so many choices to think of....i mean i dunno which course to go to....hahas....its still a long way to go but when i think again...nah...its like soo near....it is easy to be loved rather than you love ppl....its just what i think...maybe wrong....hahas....

to see people around me happy also brings happiness to me....it always do....
to see people whom i care about sad brings dark clouds to my life and dark clouds in my life means sadness...
i always pray and i hope that i am and will always be the clear cloud that will take the dark clouds away from all the people that i care about....
i maybe hiding my sad feelings away from all those ppl that i care for just for one simple reason;its because i do not want to make them worry about me....even though i try to hide,sometimes the sadness of mine reveal itself....needless for me to tell....its just up to ppl to know or not whether i am troubled....for those who spot the sadness in me....well....good....but do u just leave wad u saw or do u make an attempt to ask wads going on in my life...that will be the question that i will leave hanging....

okies.....enough of the post...tired....wanna get some rest....byes...

Spring Cleaning..

2008-11-22T21:33:00.004+08:00

today was a day that i really enjoy....coz my whole family get together and do something together...hahas...we did spring cleaning...wahaha....yup...we clean the storage place...hahas...it was super fun...hehes....despite the dust and all that...we totally had FUn...Loads of it...Now...we have 3 lvl of storage place....thanks to my Dad...hahas....he is wonderful....wehehe...hmm....after doing that,we were beat to the max...Damn tired!!! hahah....hmm....tmr...going out to a place nearb my place...im buying something for myself....hahas...well...gonna catch some rest for now...be back to blog again some time...byes

2008-11-20T15:13:00.002+08:00

This is a sad song that i love to hear...well...its about a couple that cannot be together and they have to end their relationship....Their relationship is as if its a stop in the mrt station...all u know,the relationship that is built is gone...its a sad song...

bowling

2008-11-20T12:38:00.005+08:00

heys...my blogger was kindda laggy...so i didn't get to update...hahas....i am happy for my frends...they get to go holiday...i heard some of my friends went to KL,Genting Highlands...hahas...i bet its loads of fun...hahas....Good for You Guys...hehe...well...hopefully my turn will come very soon...hahas...erm...yea...a few days back...my family went to play bowling....hahas...it was fun playing....to see them play bowling plus their laughter is enough to take my loneliness and my stress away...i was cheer up by the laughter of my cousins....my grandmother and my other family members...it was indeed a wonderful time together as a family...hahas...i hope we can do it more often....i did not play that day cause i was having a headache...hahas....too bad for me but i enjoyed myself....after bowling,we went to CCK...its my youngest uncle home....to have a feast....there are 2 families going to my youngest uncle's house....my family and my eldest uncle....it was another fun time we had together...hahas....we play cooking at my youngest uncle house....it was super fun...everyone has a job to do....my job was to fry popiah,beancurd....hahas....actually we made rojak on that day...hehe....the kitchen was full of laughter...the little ones were just watching tv and playing PSP...hahas....when everything is laid on the dining table,we help ourselves with the food...its fun!!! Thank you uncle and auntie...I love u guys!!!

RAndom pictures that i took from the bowling alley...

Look at the skeleton bowling...hahas....nice right?? i like that one....its cool....wahhaha...

Hahas....bowling alley....its cool to spend time playing bowling....wee...hehe....to my beloved friends....how about one day we all go and play bowling together....it will be fun....we can have a mini competition btwn us...hahas....okies....time to go...Byes!!

Waiting...

2008-11-17T14:48:00.001+08:00

hahas...not been updating for some time...lolz...argh!!! kindda stress!!! Have to find job so that i can earn money and then can go shopping and save up for something...hehe...anyway...i am really BORED!!! staying at home..HAIz!!! waiting for the resluts....

Phewww....

2008-11-11T12:59:00.003+08:00

YEAH!!! its finally Over....wahaha...hehe....no need to go school already...hehes...erm....today is my final O levels paper which is Science paper 1...thats MCQ...well...it went well....in fact i treasure my last day in school today....had long talks with my schoolmates....it was fun....many a times i will laugh when i chat with them...it's been awhile since i last laugh....hahas....well....gald that my O levels has ended....it ended well...I have given my best in O levels and i will continue praying hard for my results....hopefully i can get to my desired polytechnic....doing my desired course....Amin...well...i will have to start looking for a part-time job....to kill my time....i dun want to just stay at home and rot...hahas....well...i heard my poly friend is going to have their exams in 3 weeks time....so ALL THE BEST!!! JIA YOU!! now i have to wait for the results....well....in school today,i am suppose to meet one of my schoolmate at 7.15am...hahas....he said he wanted to give me a very belated birthday present...hahas....as usual..i reach at the school foyer early and waited for him...hahas....well...not long after that he reach and he was smiling....i went up to me and he handed me the present....i like the present...its lovely....it is a key chain....it has my name on it....its Purple...hahas....well....here is the picture....

hehe...this is the key chain that my friend gave to me as my birthday present....hahas....i really like it...So...Thank You my friend.......luv ya laways...
okies....i want to go enjoy le...hahas....byess...

Read it...Understand it...Feel the way i feel...

2008-11-09T13:17:00.004+08:00

i always thought u are there...
there when im in happiness and in sadness...
it was all a pretence...
it was all fake...
nvr thought it would happen this way...
tell me im not stupid.....
tell me im not...

now that i cannot run nor hide...im stuck...
stuck in this darkness that u have put me in...
i have to go through alot of pain and suffering...
pain that would never be washed way nor be forgotten...
it is always my fault....not urs...blinded by ur own mistakes...
i admit that i do make mistakes and i would apologise if necessary..
but how abt u...do u even have the face to apologise if u are in the wrong?

the happiness that is there suddenly vanish...i cant catch the happiness...
it just disappear right in front of my eyes...
its all different...i am alone...in this beautiful world...
i sacrifice alot of my life for you...do u even care??
i have to cry every night just to tell myself that tomorrow will be a new day and that i will have to learn how to forget....i am weak...i am alone...

i told myself...let nature takes its course....
if we are not meant to be together...
then i will have to learn to accept the fate...
i will have to learn how to forget to...
getting hurt is part and parcel of life...
but how long can individual withstand it??
sure there will be days when u will feel like telling the whole world that you should not have been in this land...
that is what that is happening to me....
i feel alone....empty...in agony...frustrated...sad...in misery....

i am not pleading for sympathy...its how i view ppl...they will go to you when they need u badly....once they have what they wanted...they will ignore you....as if u are not even there....as if u are invisible...to ppl like that...i wonder if u have any feelings of gratitude towards ppl who helped you...

guess i will leave it till here...see what happens next...May all tun out well...Amin...

after reading this...start counting how many ppl out there...considering them as ur frends will care to even ask if you are doing well in life??
start counting...maybe handful will ask....

Fishy Fishy....

2008-11-07T04:17:00.002+08:00

heys...its been some time since i update my blog...hahas...erm...i am blogging about me going to Senoko Fishery Port...hahas...i went it early this morning....its at 1am...its was a very busy place i can tell....many fishmongers were busy setting up their stalls....hahas...it was something that i saw.....its my 1st time going there....so im kindda excited....hehe....i saw fish that is still alive....prawns jumping here and there....hehe...its really fun going there....i went there with my parents and grandma....and my uncle zai...he directed us there and he had to leave....well...thank you to uncle zai that he brought us there....hahas....

well....my grandma spent $50 on the fishe that sshe wants....for us...we bought 8kg of prawns....hahas....the prawn are really huge....i love seeing big prawns....and fishes....The best thing about today is getting to see fresh fish from the port itself....it was something that i wont forget....well....the smell of that place is still ok....not that smelly....hahas....so...if i have the time,i would want to go to Senoko Fishery Port....okies...its 4.30am....gonna catch some sleep....waking up at 6am to go market....buying meat and chicken....hahas...its for my aunt who is going to mecca this year....well...my mum she is cooking for her and need to buy all those groceries...orites!! Byes!!

2008-11-01T18:13:00.007+08:00

Its down to 2 papers....after that its time for me to find a part-time job....while waiting for the results for my O levels.....hehe....wad type of job....well....i tink those easy one first...just to have the feel of working life....hmm....well....see how larh horh....today....i went to JP library to study Social Studies....i have the paper this monday....Jinn Chyau accompanied me at the library...Thank you so much!! we met at 12.30pm and went to the library....There is not many people in the library.....hehe....i studied and chat at the same time.....and about 4 plus....we went to Jurong Point Shopping Centre to eat....We went to the foodcourt at the basement level to eat....we ate Carrot Cake....Takoyaki...and Ice Kacang....haha....after eating all those food...i was full to the Max...hehe....anyway...it was nice eating with Jinn Chyau....long time since we ate together....i miss the times when we were in school eating together with the rest of my schoolmates...it was super fun!!The ice kacang that we ate was kindda scary coz it looks like we are eating monster blood....its sooo Greenish....wahaha.....but we still eat it larh....of coz....haha..we sat for a little longer and have some chat before we make our way home....Thank you for ur time Jinn Chyau...I appreciate it....

here are some pictures that was taken by Jinn Chyau....

This is Takoyaki....the filling is squid and prawn.....they are delicious....hehe.....look at the mayonnaise and the the fish sauce.....plus the fish flakes.....OMG!! haha....its super delicious....hmm....makes me hungry again....haha....just joking....

This is the Ice kacang that is like blood of a monster....haha....its super Green lorh....haha.....Omg!!haha....

Okies....time for me to hit the books again...hahas....Byes ppl....To Jinn Chyau...Thank you:)

2 more papers

2008-10-31T19:51:00.002+08:00

Today...i had 3 papers....in a day....OMG!!! wahaha....i had Principles of Accounts paper 1 and paper 2 and biology paper....wahaha....i went crazy just now...with so many things to remember...hehe....today paper starts at 8am and the last paper ends at 3.45pm....by that time, i was so exhausted....haix....second paper that i did....almost fall asleep...haiyo....The paper was a bit tough but still managable for Principles of Accounts....hopefully can pass the paper....hmm....biology was interesting....i am happy doing the paper.....hahas....Now i am left with 2 papers....they are Social Studies and Science MCQ.....and after that....Done!! hmm....better start with Social Studies already....i wanna score for it...To 2008 O levels candidate....ALL the Best!!! Go all the way!!! JIa You!!!

Maths Paper2...Today...

2008-10-30T13:23:00.003+08:00

Hehe....blogging again....I had Maths paper2 today.....wahaha....The paper was challenging....hehe....i like...after sitting for two and a half hour...i can tell you...my butt hurts....and my head feels like bursting...argh!!! hahas....just found this maths puzzle and put it as a picture in my post...hahas.....Overall the paper was managable...hopefully i will pass my overall maths...Amin...erm....im left with 5 papers to go....then wee!!! Free!! Can find a part-time job already...hehe....my dear frends...help me with this...hehe....tmr...i will be having 3 papers...haha....WTH!! having accounts paper and science....haix...as o levels is coming to an end....i somehow feel sad....sad cause i will miss the school and my dear ones....haix....especially him....who kept my spirits high...and keep movtivating me to go to school each day and learn something new...Thank you to "him"...hehe....wish he knew that he is my source of motivation...hahas....im crapping....okies....time for me to hit the books....3 papers waiting for me tmr!!! hopefully i can do it...Amin...Oya...before i forget...i just wanna wish my cousin a Happy Birthday!!! MAy all ur wish come true...Amin...byes...

im TaggeD...Again!! haha...

2008-10-28T14:49:00.002+08:00

Here....i am tagged again....haha....by Jinn Chyau....hehe....okie....i just know that i did the wrong quiz for him....haha....nvm....let me spend some time again doing this quiz...haha...
Here i go:
1. The 1st person who tag/pass you is? >> Jinn Chyau<<
2. Your relationship with him/her? >>My close frend-he was my ex-schoolmate..<<
3. Your five impression of him/her. >>Jinn Chyau-
clever...funny...sporty...gentleman...thoughtful...<<
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? >>his company on oct 07 08<<
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you? >>"All the best for your paper."<<
6. If he/she become your lover, you will? >>I will love him,take care of him and be with him through thick and thin...haha....will that happen??<<
7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on? >>hmm...be more loving....haha...<<
8. If he/she became my enemy, you will? >>hmm...lets see if it happens....then he will know...<<
9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be? >>hmm...many reasons.... <<
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is? >>be a very good close frend and no secrets between us<<
11. Your overall impression of him/her is? >>Caring<<
12. How you think people around you will feel about you? >>i dunno....as long as im happy...i dont care wad ppl say...wahaha...<<
13. The characters you love of yourself are? >>straight-forward...daring...dun like to lie...<<
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are? >>bottle-up my feelings...hot-tempered<<
15. The most ideal person you want to be is? >>someone slim...the rest im ok with it...<<
16. For people who care and like you, say something to them. >>Thank you..I love u too...i'll give u a hug...u mind?
17. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1.Jinn Chyau2. Fikri3. Celina4. Jing Hui5.Derek6.Alvin7. Rui Xin8.Spider9.Sophia10.Benjamin
18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? >>hmm...i dunno....<<
19. Is no.9 a male or female? >Sophia> female
20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? >>Rui Xin and Benjamin
21. What is no. 2 studying about? >Fikri<-Landscape Architecture
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.9. >>Sophia>in school after my paper<<
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like. >>spider-well...i thinnk he likes Rock music...<<
24. Does no. 1 has any siblings? >>Jinn Chyau-yes..he have...1 younger brother....1 elder sister<
25. Will you woo no.3? >Celina-same gender as me....its a No...i will not woo her...<
26. How abt no.7? >Rui Xin<- i dunno leh....<
27. Is no.4 Single? >>Jing hui...single..<<
8. What is the surname of no.5? >derek>Ng
29. What’s the hobby of no.10? >>Benjamin>hmm...let me guess....maybe gaming bah...<<
30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? >>derek and sophia> i dunno...maybe...<<
31. Where is no.2 studying at? >>fikri>sp<<
32. Talk something casually about no. 1. >>jinn chyau>friendly,caring,thoughtful<<
33. Where does no.9 live at? >sophia>Jurong West...
34. What colour does no. 4 like? >jing hui>pink?? yellow??
35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friend? >derek and jinn chyau>not sure whether they know each other....haha
36. Does no.1 have any pets? >yes... Hamsters
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? >rui xin> he can be one...
38. What is no. 6 doing now? >Alvin>at home i guess...revising for O levels??

I've been taggeD!!

2008-10-25T14:53:00.008+08:00

I've been tagged....haha....okies....here am i doing....haha....just take some time to answer it...hehe..well....i just answer it honestly....so yea...

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets? =Yes...i do have secrets=
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you? =hmm...may consider=
(original question: Would you fall in love with a girl older than you?)
3. Do you enjoy going to sch? =if i have someone in school that i like....of course i enjoy going to school=
4. What would you do with a billion dollars? =i will save some for the future....the other some...i will treat all my sweethearts=
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend? =If my best friend is a guy...Sure...y not?=
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? =actually both...but a more blessed one will be being loved by someone=
7. List out your 15 favourite songs. =The list is too long...haha....=
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? =just be friends with him...nothing wrong with it...=
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy? =Yes..Lots of them...haha=
10. What makes you angry? =When things dun turn out the way u want...that happen recently...so angry abt it..haix=
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time? =driving a motorbike...living a happy life...having my Dream career...=
12. Who is currently the most important people to you? =God...My families...My sweethearts=
13. What is the most important thing in life? =Love and acceptence=
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? =Single and rich...hehe...=
15. What is your favourite colour? =Red...Blue...Purple...Black...Brown...=
16. Would you give all in a relationship? =No and Yes=
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick? =The Best Man wins...actually its already happening....confuse abt it...haha...=
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done? =Forgive...depends....Forget...NEVER!!!=
19. What do you want to tell the someone you like? =U are my oxygen that keeps me breathing...hehe....=
20.5 people I have tagged:(1)Celina(2)Rui Xin(3)Alvin(4)Jing hui(5)Derek

wohoo!!

2008-10-24T12:00:00.004+08:00

I had Maths Paper 1 today....hehe....it was fun doing the paper....i was shivering while doing the paper...this is due to the rain and its very cold....haha...the cold was so intense....overall the paper was managable...i had time to check my work....Hopefully i can get good grades for it...Amin...hehe...I have got Maths paper 2,Principle of Accounts,Social Studies,Biology left to go for....hehe....half more to go!! Jia YOu!!
Paper end at 10am....i was like frozen by the weather....haha....went to sit at the canteen for awhile with Fereal....then I saw him....he was smiling at me when our eyes met...haha....i was like....melting....haha....he said the paper was easy for him....hehe....then me and fereal sat at the bench....awhile later..Firdaus came and chat with us about the maths....we discussed some of the answers...haha....after that...fereal was bored and ask me if i wanna have my lunch wif her....i agreed...we went to kfc across the road near our sch....
To my surprise again....i saw him....haha....at first i didnt saw them and actually walk in front of them....Fereal kept quiet...didnt say he was there wif his frends....haix....then suddenly they laugh very loud and i happened to turn to them...i said "Hi" to them and they were like "HI!!" i made things short cause my stomach said,"Quick...im hungry already!!"
Haha...i said all the best to them and specially to him...hehe....i wave them gd bye and they did the same and we head to kfc...hahas....i was so famished...we ordered and took our time to eat....she shared with me alot of secrets about her.....and her life.....i listened and well enjoy the eating session....hehe....then after we have filled our stomach....we head home....haha....preparing for the next paper...see ya!!

bottled feelings for him

2008-10-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

he...his voice....his movement....his speech....his smile....all of it i cant take any longer.....its unbearable....i cant deny the fact anymore....i love him but i am too scared to tell...each time when i look at him...he will give me this smile which tells me something that i cant figure out....just now...he gave me this HOT smile...and we can feel the connection between us....the feeling is so peaceful....so tranquil....i felt as though i caught a glimpse of heaven....its so sweet....why am i feeling this way??
Cant be happening....haix....my wish is to hold u in my arms....never letting u go....i want to hug you and i want to let u know everything that i have been keeping from you....i want you to be beside me even its a few minutes....i dun bother what others say abt us....i just want to be with you....when our eyes meets....there is this hidden message that only the both of us understand....and its pleasing....the way u spoke to me....ur voice...its still playing in my ears...i will never get tired listening to that voice....
Ur words...keeps me moving....making my life as colourful as the rainbow....i am afraid to let go of this feeling....neither do i have the courage to tell you....so basically i cant do anything at tis point of time....haha....i hope there will be solution....i am praying that the day will come and u and i can be together.....the days we walk home together....i will never forget....u make me feel like a lady....when we are walking in 3s...u are protective...u will walk beside me instead of the guy that i dont know...thank you for that....i really appreciate it...may one day it happen...when it happen....i hope its not too late.....i just want to be with you....

Dangerously....

2008-10-23T21:48:00.005+08:00

It came without any warning.....Its dangerous....Haha....I dunno wad to do at tis point of time...Both of them is asking for the same thing....Haha....wad am i suppose to do??Haha....wish i can have Both...but i cant....OH NO!!! HOW??Hopefully i can get it settle as quickly as possible....Argh!! Am i suppose to accept or not??I didnt expect it to happen...it cant be happening...with o levels going on....haix....hmm....lets put that one side....today....i had o level Geography paper....haha....its was a good paper i tink...alot of my brain cells burst....hehe....i mean...really...its a good paper....manage to answer the questions....was happy....hopefully i get the best results for myself....Amin...Not forgetting my precious honie....
Thank You so much Honie!!! tmr will be having Maths paper 1....ALL the Best to me and also to all 2008 O lvl candidates!!! Jia You!!!

Wahaha...

2008-10-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

Haha...long time didnt blog....well....im just taking a break for awhile and decided to blog...I had English Paper 1 and 2 today....it ended at 7pm...haix..the paper was managable...Really:) I wrote about something that is related to me....find it easier to write....its about the delights and frustrations of being a teenager....Haha....yesterday i had Chemistry paper...its was managable also...Thanks to my favourite teacher who taught me just a few hours before the paper starts...Thank you so Much!!! Tmr...no paper....but going to the library to study with my honie....To all 2008 O level candidate....All the Best for the rest of the paper!!! Jia You!!!

Been awhile

2008-10-08T20:07:00.003+08:00

Heys...its left with less than 8 days to O levels!!! OMG!!! tats like sooo fast...the tension is rising...hahas....going insane....revising all my subjects....its gonna be tough...but with determination...i am sure i can clear this hurdle....Amin....have been busy with school work....i haven't have the time to blog....so i guess i will not be blogging and updating my blog for awhile....hahas....its not a DEAD blog im telling you...its just that im busy...hahas....today...in school was normal...morning after assembly we went up to the AVA room for a briefing by Principal....she was happy with our Prelims results and she pray for us that we will be better in our O levels comparing to Prelims.....May her prayers be answered and may all the candidates in my school graduate from school...we will then further our education to the tertiary level...Amin...tmr will be another exciting day...i cant wait...so...i make my move...preparing for o levels....hehe...byes...

Down..totally down...

2008-10-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

hi..blogging again....haha....well...i can say that as for now...i will not be blogging as frequent....hahas....exams coming...recently...my emotions are playing with me...i hate that....why is this happening?? This should not be happening at tis point of time...haix...everything went very well...so well that when the other party turn out...he/she just spoils everything....i feel kindda pissed actually....its very bad...its not nice to label ppl....so i will just have to keep that labelling of him/her to myself...i dun want to hurt any of the ppl involved...let me be the one who suffers....nobody cares anyway....keep thinking of their own feelings...selfish i can say....its all the same logic...GOD...Damn it!! I HATE IT...Im suffocating!! If you say u care abt ur frend...wad would you do to help me??I just hope that u can read and understand me...is it so difficult??or u just dun bother??its 2 different thing....are u going to end our friendship just becoz of someone who is always there??...sticking with you...i have been tolerating this...i do not want to blow up in front of ppl...better not...both of us will be ashame...so...i keep it still....one thing is for sure...my heart is tearing apart every single day....the wound...its gets deeper and deeper every single day....after all we have been through,is this how you treat me??i care so much abt you...here u are...not even bothering abt me...if you ask me a qn....i can feel that u force urself to ask me that qn...u dun have to ask if you are force 2...i know where i stand beside you....friend...i have always love and care abt you....but when u do tis to me...i am upset...sad...depressed...leaving tis post here as of now....

Am i a good girlfriend?

2008-09-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Gemstone

2008-09-29T17:34:00.001+08:00

My Gemstone Says...

You are stable, strong, and full of life. You are an inspiring person.

People turn to you first for leadership and advice.

You are able to gently help people get to where they need to be.

And while you aren't afraid to lead when necessary, you are never heartless or bossy.

The Gemstone Test

My SunDay..

2008-09-28T20:49:00.008+08:00

Today..i had a great day...Thank to my dearest...I went to the library at JP and i saw a couple of my frends...hahas...i saw RX...JK...and one of my express frend...hahas...well...i study there...i can tell you...its freAking cold in there...like duh!! its the library...wahaha...then i waited for my honie to come...It has been a VERY LONG TIME since i last meet my honie...I miss him terribly...Its WONDERFUL spending my Sunday with YOU HONIE...thank You...then after that we took some crazy pictures in my honie's laptop...haha...i can tell you its crazy...we had a good time laughing...hehe...i shall post it once i get the pictures...hahas...after all those crazy shots...we went to Jurong Point and went round that building...hehex...we went to a shop....and i started looking at the cute stuff and my honie come up to me and he said he wanted to buy me my Belated birthday present....he bought me something i Really LOVE...its WINNIE THE POOH...its lovely...i Love it...THank You Honie...muakkss 2 you...hahas...hmm....after buying my present,we took 187 to block 400+ to get food for our breakfast...hahas...there is alot of ppl when we got there....its crowded...haha...after buying our food...we went to some place....i mean a shop...well...i shall stop here....let the rest of the story be hanging...let me n my honie know the rest....hehe..."O" Level is round the corner....Time to hit the books!!! All the Best to all O levels candidate of 2008!!hmm...before i go...i just want to post some picture tat was taken today...

This is wad my honie bought for me for my birthday present....I LOVE IT!! Thank You Honie...I cannot thank you enough...I really Love it...

I Love it soooo much that i want to kiss it....Haha...i really Like it!!!

Kissing it still..wahaha....

Picture taken before we went home....haha....well....he looks cute with long hair....but i love it when he have short hair...haha....he looks best with short hair...hehe....yea....he's getting a new hair cut....wonder how he look like with the new hair??
hehe...okie...gtg...byes...

What Love Song Are You?

2008-09-24T18:24:00.002+08:00

Well...i just got alittle bored and so i just did some test...wahaha...

What Love Song Are You?

Your Love Song Is..

Thankyou by Dido

"And I want to thank you for giving me
The best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you is having
The best day of my life."

It's all good, as long as you're in love.

What Love Song Are You?

What Do People Envy About You?

2008-09-24T17:57:00.001+08:00

What Do People Envy About You?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Are Your Feelings For Him Lust or Love?

2008-09-24T17:54:00.001+08:00

Are Your Feelings For Him Lust or Love?
It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

Are Your Feelings For Him Lust or Love?

are u a gd frend?

2008-09-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen to your friends.
And you're the first to lend a shoulder to cry on.
You're there through thick and thin. You won't stop being friends with someone when times are tough.
In fact, you're such a good friend that many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Relieve...Countdown...less than 3weeks

2008-09-24T16:57:00.003+08:00

As for now...im feeling kindda relief because i know the results for most of my Prelims marks...Well...Overall, i improved myself comparing it with Mid-year Exams...haha...well...im not going to be contented with my marks....there is lots more to be done...im going to work harder to achieve my goals...Need moral support for all of YOU my Frends....We will work together and hopefully we will graduate together leaving nobody behind!! JIA YOU EVEERYBODY!!! with barely less than 3weeks,we are sitting for O levels.... My beloved frends....Ur companion....ur teaching....ur coaching....is the thing that i needed the most at tis point of time....Going for my final Battle....So hope you all can guide me along in order for me to be able to face this battle that im going...Its the most crucial time....of my life...Well...To all "O" levels candidates...ALL THE BEST!! And to me...All the Best 2... *Smiles*

Requested by my galfrend...

2008-09-21T16:01:00.004+08:00

Name:Nur Atiqah/Atiqah/Iqah

Birthday:September

Righty or lefty:dunno leh...hahas

Screen name:Wad is that??

Attach or Single: Single

Favourites:

Food:Chicken Rice...Laksa...Chicken Chop...Fish&Chips...Fishball Noodle...Carrot Cake...Takoyaki...

Pizza...

Drinks:Cold Milo..Bird's Nest..Apple juice...Honeydew juice...Barley

Colours:ReD..BluE..GrEeN..PurPLe..BroWn...

Number(s): 7..8..9..10..21..23..

Initials: huh??

Songs: Classical...Slow Rock...RnB..Ballad...Soothing Music

Band:Alot of Malay band...

7 things I cant live Without

(1)Handphone

(2)Perfume

(3)Jewelry

(4)Parents/Family/Friends

(5)Music

(6)Things that keep me alive(food,air,drinks)

(7)Computer

7 things I want in a Relationship

(1)LOVE

(2)TRUST/RESPECT

(3)HONESTY

(4)UNDERSTANDING

(5)ROMANTIC

(6)SPENDING QUALITY TIME WIF EACH OTHER

(7)NO SECRETS AT ALL

7 of my Favourite Hobbies

(1)Swimming

(2)Drawing

(3)Playing sports

(4)Collecting Stamps

(5)Collecting perfumes

(6)Collecting Necklaces...rings...

(7)SmS-ing...

7 things I want to Do Badly Right Now

(1)Pass my "O" Levels

(2)Go Overseas

(3)A job..

(4)Hug my dear friends and tell them how much I miss them..

(5)Swimming...

(6)Go to gym...

(7)Having someone to massage my aching body...

7 People I trust most

(1)The ALMIGHTY(ALLAH)

(2)Myself

(3)sumone...

(4)sumone...

(5)sumone...

(6)Still sumone...

(7)sumone...

7 things I say most

(1)WTH(What The Hell)

(2)WHY??

(3)WHERE??

(4)HAHA...

(5)Hmm...

(6)Wait...Let me think...

(7)Hmm...

7 ppl to do this

(1)Fikri

(2)JInn Chyau

(3)Celina

(4)Hwee Leng

(5)Rui Xin

(6)Sheng Poh

(7)Derek

Prelims!! Over!!

2008-09-17T17:53:00.003+08:00

Finally!! Prelims Over!! YAhoo!! Only waiting for the results....hehe...Hoping for the best though....hehe....Well....I had my last paper today...Science...well...the questions were as challenging...so its fun answering it...wahaha...anyway...after my paper a teacher made an announcement...giving their students worksheets to do...i laugh my lungs out...wahaha....and you know wad...the moment later...Mdm Khaw came in and give us our Prelim paper....We are suppose to re-do it...i was like...Goodness me!! I was like...Serve me right...for laughing at ppl...wahaha...Anyway...look on the bright side...its for practice...Weheee...so...im going to do it slowly over the weekend..yea!! today...in school was great...well...shall not write it here..wahaha....i shall store it inside my brain...engrave it in my memories....hehe...all i can say is i Totally Love it!!hehex....ok...gtg....start doing my paper....well...at least the 1st qn...haha...byes...

Wahaha...Problem....

2008-09-15T14:07:00.008+08:00

TO My UNCLE AND KHUMAIRAA...HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 YOU!!!!

im back blogging....wahaha....today i have to make my way to Outram for checkup...It appoinment is super EARLY larh....Haiyo....While waiting for the MRT,i was observing how SIngaporeans behave and how is the society like...Well...i can tell u tat...its CRAZY...I can see that morning at the MRT station is chaotic....I even see ppl rushing out from the MRT like a marathon....haiz....i took the 7.30am train....aft waiting for sssssoooo long.....wahaha....well....i went with a galfrend of mine....She is nice....to accompany me to Outram....we reach there early...well...i was expecting to be late...but we wasn't...hehex...hmm....went to register myself for the checkup...well...it well pretty fast...we just sat there in less then 5 minutes....my number was being called....My number: M0830...hehe....know wad....the receptionist lady was very nice....As she check my particulars,she noticed something...and she looked at me....and smiled....i got alittle scared...haha....and then she wish me a "Happy Birthday"...hahas...its nice....then she told me to proceed to room 21 where my measurements were taken....inside the measurement room...hahas...there are 2 nurses...they took my measurements....haha...funny thing is...one moment im tall...the nxt moment im short....wahaha....we had a great laugh....hehe....they were nice too....then i went to room 11 for GC....i went into the room...sat down...the doctor asked me a few questions....then the doctor asked me to lie on the bed and the doctor unzip my pants!!! i feel like im being "RAPE"...wahaha....LUCKY its a female doctor....thank you GOD...she checked my heartbeat only to find that its normal and she asked me if i was nervous...haha...indeed i was nervous...then we went to the last room....Room 44...to see a nutritionist...she give me advice on wad to eat...stuff like that....blah...blah...blah...I need to come back in Oct and Dec...OMG!!! to do blood test and another check...haiz....i need company!! who can accompany me??haha....anyway....after that,we went shopping!!! Its been sometime since i last did shopping....so we get what we wanted and head home....I was totally exhausted!!! well....took some pictures....

This picture is one of the Japanese food outlet that my galfrend eats her breakfast...not me of course...hehe...im fasting....the place is nice....air-conditioned.....i like the place for u to eat...its nice and simple.....
I just got bored....i took some pictures of that food outlet....hahas

Hehe...we buy an identical friendship band...we like it!!! after buying,we immediately went to find a place to sit and put it on our ankle....hehe....issit nice??
Things i bought 4 myself....

I bought myself a jacket....haha....its for my coming birthday present...wahaha!!! i love my new jacket....
me in my new jacket....hehe.....

My life....

2008-09-14T10:45:00.011+08:00

First of all....HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY to JOLENE!!!! STAY PRETTY!!! MAY YOU BE HAPPY WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND& FAMILY...ALWAYS....ENJOY!! wahaha....with one more paper to go for my prelims....i have to wait till WEdnesday...16 September....hehe...i still got science to go....so...Jia YOu for my frends and also myself....wahaha...After Prelims...it will be the big battle every sec 4e&5N students have been waiting for...Its O LEVELS!!!....seems scary though....anyway....I will give my best shot....I will give my level best...dun wanna let my loved ones be sad....i want to see them happy....I dun need to find happiness because to see my loved ones happy is considered my happiness....*smiles* hmm....well....life this days has been...how should i put it....BAD!!!.......no one seems to care so much abt me....i feel like im invisible....sometimes i think..."why am i even born on tis planet call Earth where everybody is so self-centred??" Maybe i should just...u know...VANISH!!! maybe things will be better....Frends....Family....Where have they been when i need them?? I am ALONE...even when there are so many ppl around me....Its true that teenagers have this problems with emotions....not all the time....but sometimes....sometimes you seem well....but actually u are not....its the feeling of ego that makes teenager dun want to speak up their mind....when they are in deep trouble will then they speak up....haix...IM AT MY WITS END NOW...
Help me!!! Somebody....well...
I have always and still counting on tis very special person in my life....he is always with me....always hear me out(but i dunno if HE is still rights now)i hope HE will......always save me....i know he is always there....but he seems sooo....far away from me....sadly...i really want to feel his love....No matter my ups or downs in life,I have always LOVE him....Dearly....Love him more than i Love myself....hehe....WAd are you thinking off?? Its ALLAH..of course....HE Is THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!HE IS ALMIGHTY!!!! Its incredible how He created tis world...haha...well....Im still finding and will keep on finding The Man Of My Life(The One/My Prince).....The One that LOVES Me....The One that will keep me in his arms when I needed comfort most....The One to share my life with....Share all our secrets....our sorrow and happiness....The One who will whisper in my ears...telling me that "everything will be fine"... even though its a tough battle that we are going through...Im still finding....I pray and i prayed....that one day The One will come....or should i say...My Prince will come and take me away....take me into our new palace....and life happily ever after...hmm...sounds like a fairy tale....well....yea...it is....

What is the best thing about LOVE besides sex? Is it the look on each other's eyes that keep telling themselves "You are the One for me and that i will always LOve you? Is it the company of ur love one that keep your day going and that everything looks wonderful? Is it this wonderful feeling...like "I'm in cloud9!!" ? Is it the wonderful moments that Lovers share with one another? well...if u have an answer to it....HIT ME IN THE TAGBOX....Thank YOu... :)

New Blog Skin!!

2008-09-10T20:13:00.004+08:00

I GoT mYsElF a NeW bLoG sKiN!!!
FiNalLy...
i really had a difficult time changing the skin...seems like i took the whole day just to do it...Haiz...Wahaha....Now that i got myself a new blow skin....I am SUPER HAPPY!!!!
Thank YOu to all my DEAR frends...who helped me to do up the Blog...Thank You!!!
All the best to me frends taking the practical paper tmr...and to me 2...haha...

* PreLiMs PaRT 2 *

2008-09-08T09:48:00.004+08:00

here i am again...lol...well...i went to school today for my part 2 Prelims Examinations....Haha...I had Principal of Accounts paper 1...well...a very good paper indeed...although i had a week of holiday...haha...filled with Fun...i also got revised some of my stuff...haha...O levels...kindda scared...well...the paper lasted for 1 hour...haix...tmr will be English Language Paper 2...Hope i can do the comprehension and the summary well...haha...It feels good to be back in school and see those people that you are comfortable with...happy to be with...i saw all the teachers that makes me smile every morning when i see them...and also my frends...of course...well...talked with my frends...we even feel that time passes by really fast and now that we realise,we are in Sec 5 and graduating...Wow!! its feels like we have just stepped into the school and the nxt moment we know is...we have to graduate...well...that school is really a memorable place for me...its filled with both happy and sad occasions...well...life has to go on...but i always tells myself....i can always go back to school to see all my beloved teachers.....haix...kindda sad because one of my favourite teacher today is sick....he has been coughing alot during the morning assembly...well...I pray that he will recover very soon... :]after paper...well...nth much to do in school...so i make my way home...its raining earlier...so the floor is kindda wet...haha...well...took bus number 99 home...it was a peaceful journey back home...just relaxing....listening to songs....enjoying air-con....reached home...hehe...im here...blogging of course...Wahaha....hehe......I am happy....coz tis month i will turn 17!!!!! OMG...another year older...hehe....well...cant wait though...well...my dearest frends....i just wanna tell you that I really Miss You Guys...haha...should meet up soon...wahaha....

Just Wanna put some pictures that i take from the internet randomly....they are put just for laughs....

This cat...hmm...i wonder what his evil plan is....psst...do u mind sharing ur plan with me?u look very excited about ur plan...hehe
Wow!! I wish i was the orange cat...haha....going for spa....massaging...its feels good....should do this....ppl say...when u go to spa...it means you love urself and pamper urself...haha...look at that smiley face...hehe...

I want to have a cat that is able to fix tv...wahaha....a least i dun have to call the repairman to do it...wahaha....then i tell you...repairman will be out of job....the cat looks like he knows what he's doing....hopefully he knows....
i dun have to day anything...read it urself...haha....

Wall.E and Geylang!!

2008-09-06T23:27:00.004+08:00

Heys...im blogging again...haix...it seems like a week has come and pass pretty soon...i was just enjoying myself at home when i have to go to school again...haiz...what a pity...anyway....today...i went to watch a movie..a sad one...I watch Wall.E ...inside my own room...haha...i watched it online....hehe...aniway...the movie is a very SAD movie....i cried when i watches the movie...It was very touching....it one of the most touching movies i had watched...well...my frends...you all should go and watch it....At 1st,i hate Eve....coz she is like playing hard to get game with Wall.E...haha...in the end....something terrible happened to Wall.E and Eve start to panic...there are many romantic scenes inside this movie...I TOTALLY LOVE it!!! Aniway...i will leave it hanging...its for u to find out the story by watching it....hehe....

Picture of Wall.E and Eve...in one of the scenes...look at wall.E....isn't he cute?hehe...i tink he is cute...and adorable too...Eve...wondering what is the thing that she is holding...well...actually its a light bulb...wahaha...

Then after that....i got ready and head to Geylang...to do a little bit of shopping...hehe...well...before that me went to jurong west st 42...to buy food at the bazaar...haha...it was totally crowded...hehe...i happen to saw my ex-classmate...hehe...then after sending some food over to my grandmother at cck...we went straight to Geylang...on the way there,we break our fast in the car...after eating in the car...we proceed to our nxt agenda...which is SHOPPING!!! I tell you...Geylang is SOO CROWDED....I almost got myself sandwich-ed there...i went breatheless there too...well...i am still happy to be alive and do some blogging here...hehe....anyway...we got what we wanted to buy and head home....Going home is the best time...after a long and tiring walk at Geylang...wahaha...i can tell you...there are lots of ppl there...u should see how they dress.....style their hair...stuff like that...hehe...ok...tats all for now...blogging again real soon....well...maybe tmr...Gd nites...

Wad my name means...

2008-09-03T20:42:00.001+08:00

I came across my frend's blog and i decided to find out what my name means...lets see what they say about my name....

What Nur Atiqah Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

BloggiNg AgAiN...

2008-09-03T19:49:00.007+08:00

Here i am blogging again....wahaha....today is the 3rd day of fasting month....Hehe...i am still feeling happy about it...tis year...hmm...i feel abit different...haha...last year...i dun like fasting...fasting to me is like....hmm...nvm about that...well....tis year...i am so happy about the fasting thingy....Wee!! Well...today...rain heavily...hmm...lucky me...i brought along an umbrella...hehe....today...i went to the jurong point library...to study maths...with Jinn Chyau...well...before that i went to buy something for my parents and met Jinn Chyau at the area around his house....we took 187 to jurong point...yea...erm...we went to the library...crowded though...hmm...i feel kindda uncomfortable though....after some time,we found an empty spot and we sat down...did my maths with assistance from Jinn chyau...erm...yea...while i did maths,Jinn Chyau help me with my drawings...its turns out to be VERY NICE!! THANK YOU Jinn Chyau!! i didn't know that he is good at shading untill he finish helping me with it...I am so impressed with it...Then we went to jurong point shopping centre...to do some errands for my mum...SHe asked me to buy "Chin Chow"(grass jelly)...and i told Jinn Chyau that i need to buy that...he goes like..."Huh??"

(he tot i want to buy him mah)...hehe...anyway...i also did some developing of pictures which i have taken from my handphone...haha....i just simply LOVe taking pictures....HAHA!! anyways here are some of the pictures that was taken just now...

To me...eagle is a symbol of bravery....very nice rite? i must thank Jinn Chyau for this...REally...its super nice... :)

Picture of Jinn Chyau and me...outside the shop where we develop the pictures...hehe...eh!! Jinn Chyau and me wear the same colour shirt arh?? WAh!! i just notice it...hahas..

This picture is also taken outside the shop...the above picture...Jinn Chyau says that it is not complete....hehe...coz his only got 3/4 of it...hehex...then we take again...and tis time round its complete but look at my eyes....wahaha!!!! i look Sleepy...OmG!!

After taking all this picture,i went home and Jinn Chyau make his way to the red hill to collect some things and after that making his way to VivoCity...another fun day in the fasting month...i am praying that all my days spent in this world that THE ALMIGHTY make be fun...enjoyable...exciting....wonderful...When school reopens,part 2 of prelims will commence...haix...still got part 2 arh!! what is this!!! Well....O levels coming...haha...no time to play....haha...well...tats all for now...may tmr be another wonderful journey...bYeS... muakkss...... to all my lovely frends.......

=Selamat Berpuasa=

2008-09-01T20:06:00.002+08:00

TO ALL MUSLIMS out there....I wish you Selamat Berpuasa!!!....today is the 1st day of the fasting month....I am very happy to get to fast for one day for today.....despite the challenges that i have to face....hehe....Today...i get to breakfast with my entire family....i enjoyed breaking fast with my family....it has been a long time since we ate together....Wehee!!! Well....we had mee soto with curry puffs...with hot drink(tea) and cold drink(bandung)...WOW!!! i can tell you...its heavenly....I feel like have achieve something REAL big by just fasting....Its the feeling of sastifaction that im talking about....wow!! 29 more days to go...JIA YOU!!

-2008-TEACHER's DAY!!

2008-08-29T16:20:00.004+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER's DAY!!!!

Teacher's Day 2008 is one of the best event that happen tis year...It was fun!! we had lots of things to do...hehe...too bad we need to do spring cleaning...HAHA...but my class...exceptional...coz we did it yesterday...haha...so we were having fun in class while the rest of the school is busy scrubbing the tables...blah..blah..hehe...We even make fun of those people...haha...Aniway...I gave presents to my beloved teachers...Mr Amran and Mr Lee Han Hwa...I hope they like the presents...hmm...today...the attendance is 6 out of 28 students turn up for school...Wahaha....Record sia...We had ACES DAY...hmm...we had a competition...and We...the Secondary 5s...WON 1st prize...Wehee...I enjoyed myself doing the competition....The concert was partly boring though...but i still watch it..haha...after dismissal time...called Jinn Chyau...waited for him to come to school....then we go eat lunch together....went to eat wif Meng yong too...erm...a guy from 4e4...hehe...did some catching up with those graduated students...and guess what...hehe...we got to eat the food prepared for the teachers...HEHE...the food was nice...Mdm Tan even told us to pack the food home...HAha...hehex...anyway...i really LOVE my Teachers in school...

TO ALL TEACHERS...I wish you a HAPPY TEACHER's DAY!!!

What a day!!

2008-08-19T19:05:00.002+08:00

today...haix..alot of things happened...morning went to school as per normal...did some revision....its the same thing over n over again....it feels like i just step into the school and now im graduating....haha...time passes REALLY FAST...Its like about a month away from "O" levels...OMG!!! Chiong-ing every subject....HAix...Very tiring day in school....everyday stay back...study...haiyo...the sad thing is...I STUDY ALONE!!! WTH!! SO BOring LArh....Hmm...lessons went on....did Biology practical....its sucky larh...haiz...i am suppose to add sodium hydroxide to the sample in the test tube containing the solution and the 1% copper sulphate...i think....no wonder i did not get the purple solution...Haiz....i got so angry about that..after school...stay back for some revision...AGAIN ALONE!!! haix...then i got a call from my frend...Hehe...Finally!! I got someone to talk to...YEAH!! talk to my frend for a while....then i did not expect him to come to school to meet me...haha...then he cannot come in....i was like...WTH...dunno why the security uncle say cannot come in...WTH!! then while im rushing to meet my frend outside school,i bump into my schoolmate....He was injured...so i help him with the injury...that took some time...I am SO SORRY JINN CHYAU... :( haix...what a day! Never mind...MAy tomorrow be a better day than today.. :)

weehee!!

2008-08-07T19:14:00.004+08:00

long time no blog....haha...its just that i have no time to write...haha...well...today,i find that there is some time for me to write...so i write....so near yet so far...My O level mother tongue result is coming out on the 12 August 2008!!!! Wahaha!!! Its Crazy!!! I hope all Huayians will pass...Pass with the grades that they desire...ALL THE BEST!!! Days in school has been fun...hehe...It is fun being with friends....I love those guys....they are great!! With them around me...i feel very happy...they are fun-loving people...hehe...i sooo...love their company...i never feel lonely again...hehe..alot of love is in the air...haha...recently there is a gal who likes one of my classmate...everytime when she walk pass my class....she will giggle here and there...Haha...Its funny how things happen sometimes...Love is everywhere....sometimes...i wonder when is my turn to be in love...Its just that i am just shy to tell him how i feel towards him...wahaha...anyway...let it be as it is for now...i am happy...I hope this happiness last forever...Enough said for now....my frends....take care....i miss u all always....

I am a GRAPE..

2008-08-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

You Are Grape

You are bold and a true individual. You are very different and very okay with that.

People know you as a straight shooter. You're very honest, even when the truth hurts.

You are also very grounded and practical. No one is going to sneak anything by you.

People enjoy your fresh approach to life. And it's this honesty that makes you a very innovative person.

What Color Purple Are You?

how i live my life?

2008-08-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

How You Live Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.

You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

keys to ur life..

2008-08-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Life

Anything good in your life comes from your ability to play and be free.

The best way for you to solve a problem is to let go of it.

Anything bad in your life comes from not being true to yourself.

Trust your instincts and follow them. Only you know what's best.

The Keys To Your Life

how Introvert/extrovert am i?

2008-08-03T13:53:00.000+08:00

You Are 60% Extrovert, 40% Introvert

You are quite outgoing

You are a social connector - you know a ton of people

While you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talker

A fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Wats my power bird?

2008-08-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

Your Power Bird is a Swan

You are a truly graceful and gorgeous creature.

You easily see beauty in yourself and others.

Intuitive and in touch, you can often guess what the future will bring.

And you're flexible enough to accept the changes that life has in store for you.

What's Your Power Bird?

Tis song for u

2008-08-02T13:48:00.004+08:00

Carrie Underwood-I'll stand by you

Days might not been easy for you....

Tears might have roll down ur cheecks...

You might have been hurt by nasty ppl out there when im not with you....

Hear out this song because i may not be with you always but bear in mind that i always remember you....

I can feel what you feel....

For what happen to you...my frend....

I will stand by you.....

Fear not...i will be there...

all you have to do is reach for me....