I have not been updating...wahaha...i kindda busy with e-learning stuff...That week was a tough week....It difficult having to juggle with alot of stuff to do...haha...guess its going to be more challenging as days goes by....haha...then it will be poly life...wahaha.....Anyway...today was the 1st day of term 2...everything was...well...okie....but i tell you....that DM of mine....haiz...he made us sit down from 7.20am-9.20am.....haiyo...my butt was like....damn painful sia....was is the reason of him doing that....to check our uniform and hair check....haha...i was like so....freaking angry...wth....wahaha....then went for mr amran's lesson...haiyo...its so good to be back....we practiced our oral skills...my O level oral is like coming soon and i am thinking if i can give my best shot...haha...hopefully i can give my best on that day...Amin...i am kindda pissed by my frends...did not do a single thing for the project work...wth...haha....M/L O level orall coming up....then prelims....then E/L O level oral....wahaha....Then the BIG BATTLE COMES!!!.....wahaha....It freaks me alittle....In school....i got to meet my frends....i miss them...wahaha....its so heaven getting to see some faces that will make my day....and i did see those ppl....i even got the chances to say Hi to them....wahaha....Kindda fun....but its not as fun as the old days that i have with my graduated frends.... I dunno why this few days i have mixed feelings....haix...its difficult to tell and express...haha...its painful for me becoz i dunno what is the feeling all abt....haiz....till again....
Peace out.
HeartBroken Clown.

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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 10:33 AM ...................

You Are 94% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:39 PM

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 7:16 PM

You Should Be an Artist

You are incredibly creative, spontaneous, and unique. No one can guess what you're going to do next, but it's usually something amazing. You can't deal with routine, rules, or structure. You're easily bored. As long as you are able to innovate and break the rules, you are extremely successful. You do best when you: - Can work by yourself - Can express your personality in your work You would also be a good journalist or actor.

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:23 PM ...................

Wahaha....Today...most tiring day ever....i was having problems with my blog....i mean i could not figure out what is wrong with the code....I cant put any post in my new blog skin....haix....I will not give up but i shall continue....maybe soon....my head feel like cracking....so stressed up...haha....anyway...i have to go to sch today even though we are still having holidays...DAMN...Have to do some stuff in school....Kindda boring...it did not turn out the way we planned....then tmr still have to go to school for O level oral....OMG!!! Im nervous sia...Wahaha...I am happy to know that our school has install a new vending machine that sells sandwich...Wahaha....After some time,we decided to have our lunch....at a coffeeshop in front of our school....well...head home after that....May tmr be a better day for me... =)
*Peaca Out*

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 4:38 PM ...................

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Adakalanya kata-katamu mengguris hatiku...
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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 9:36 PM

Your Love Is Represented By a Red Rose

You love passionately and fully, without any reservations. And while romantic love comes easily for you, you also love many people platonically(A platonic relationship or emotion is affectionate but not sexual.) You are a true romantic, and you always can see the best in people.

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 2:59 PM

Haha...i got nothing to do actually....so i took some time to do this personality test....It turn out to be kindda true...wakaka.... You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed. For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved. At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 2:42 PM ...................

As requested...by some ppl....i am going to post about my day in East Coast Park(ECP) celebrating Father's Day....It was fun celebrating this special day with not only with ur father's but with my whole family...It was a very peaceful day just to sit and have fun at the beach enjoying the wind...hehe...i just love the beach...it makes my mind very calm.....so peaceful....We reach there in the morning and left around 6pm...We had fun...playing with sandcastles....swimming at the beaches....it reminds me of the younger days when i used to be like those younger ones...playing with water...building sandcastles...but now...i just couldn't....i just have too many things to do....to many things to attend to...to many things to think about...Overall I enjoyed being there at ECP...with my families....though some could not attend....I love all the peaceful moments together....I bought presents for my dad...my uncles....I just love the feeling...Giving presents and people go like"Thank You so much...."I mean they appreciate the present....I wish i have many happy moments together while i can still see the world...Once eyes of mine have shut themselves....that will be the time when darkness is all i can see....Anyway...I love Happy Father's Day!!!

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 1:23 PM ...................

You treat me good...I give you a heavenly feeling.....
You treat me bad..I'm gonna givee HELL to you...

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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:26 PM

Life has ups n downs....Humans...when we are having our happy times,we forgot all about our times when we have difficulty....When we are in the difficult stage....we...humans....will always curse God...we will say "why God is so mean?Why did he do this to me?"...Most of the time when we are in midst of difficulty,we will then remember Allah...by that time,it will be too late....My point is this...we need to remember Allah always...no matter what happens....In times of happiness and in time of sadness...When we feel happy,it is because of Him...All the good things come from Him...and yah...the bad things come from us...naturally....well....after all we are His creations....He has All the powers....We(His creations) are all very small....we do not have any powers....If anyone should have,he/she can never defeat the power of The ALmighty....NEVER!!There are some things that I am not happy with myself....well...yah...erm...my size.....my looks...i see myself as an ugly duckling...haiz...Damn...Why do guys look more on looks rather than the heart?Looks cannot last for long....Once our face start to have wrinkles,it can never fade...the line will always be there....That will be the sign for us to stat preparing for the life after....My mind has been seeing all this things...How is it going to be like?How does it feel to be in clouds,seeing the birds flying freely in the sky?How does it feel when u can just eat without feeling full?How does it feel to walk freely without anyone to tell you when to go home,what to do...I have tis feeling that it will be a nice place there...A place where everythings happens at the same time...I am longing for the day to come....well....i am just praying for the day to come early....Finding and still finding....
Signing off
HeartBroken Clown

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 5:36 PM ...................

Saturday was fun...I just love today.....Wish many more of it will come....Hehe....okay...yesterday went to buy presents for Fathere's Day...I went to IMM with my my dearest friend,Fikri....We had alot fun there....I bought quite a number of things for my dad...*Peace*...At JE,we came across this man...He is disgusting....OMG!!He had big tummy....as he was walking towards our direction,he smack on his tummy and it goes "Plup"...Omg...its dammnnn disgusting...haha....we laugh our hearts out...Hehe....Then we went to a shop....to get fake nails and Fikri put it on for me....OMG!! It is so freaking uncomfortable larh...Being the 1st time wearing it....Haha....Sounds unbelieveable...but its true....Fikri bullied me...asking me to wear it...haha....After some time,I got the hang of it,I start to like wearing it but still not use to wearing fake nails.... hahaz...need time i guess....while walking at the IMM,to my horror,I saw my teacher...haha...i go like...OMG!!Mr Amran...my mly teacher....lucky he did not notice us....haha...bought sushi,teriyaki steak,more present for Father's Day....then we head on to Library....Fikri did manicure for me....HAha...I LOVED It...Its Fun!!My Nails are Shiny....I LOVE my Nails...Thank You Fikri!!!We chatted for some time....Its really fun....chatting with frends....someone whom u can relate to...is always fun...chill out....Just had the best day today!!I wish there is more to come!!
May tmr be a better day....
And to all Father's out there....I wish u Father's a HAPPY FATHE"S DAY!!!!
That is all for now....Knocking off...Tmr me celebrate at East Coast Park...hahas...
*Peace Out*
Signing off.

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 1:18 AM ...................


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To my frend....I wish you that you have a great day....Smile alwayz....coz u look great when you smile.....My frend....I love ya....Miss ya always...

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:58 PM


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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:26 PM ...................

The day when you leave our homeland is the saddest day of my life...
The day when you reach our homeland is the happiest day of my life...
My life without you is disastrous...No one to chat with...No one to joke with...No one to go out with....No fun at all...For all the days that u are away,I always pray for ur safety...I admit that those days are the most painful day ever...I REALLY MISS YOU!!Only GOD knows how worried i was...The moment I think abt you,I would quickly pray...Pray that HE will protect you from any danger...I hope that you had a wonderful journey... =)
Signing off
-Worried HeartBroken Clown-

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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:35 PM ...................

For all this time...i thought u were the person who i can trust...a place to put my love....after all the years that we have been togather...why is it that u are doing this to me??WHy??I simply dun understand why are u doing this to me....u said i abandon u...do u tink i have the heart to treat you like that?Or is it you have forgotten who i really am...Each time u went home without even saying a goodbye to me....it HURTS....When its break time....you just went down without waiting for me....It HURTS me....Every single day,i just pray that it gets better but seems like my prayers have not been answered....i will keep on praying.....Now i am asking you back....WHO IS ABANDONING WHO???You don't even care about me like you do last time....Why is it that u seem like avoiding me?Tell me straight if i have ever hurt you....Every night i cried....the cut that u left on me is VERY deep....so much so that i tink it will never heal....No words can describe how deep is it.....You are as if neglecting me.....Sometimes it makes me wonder....Wondering whether i did the right thing or not....haha...that i cannot answer it myself...The memories that we had together...Is it just going to be down the drain??Does our friendship going to be like this forever?I dunno what else to say as this point of time but i can definitely say that i am truly hurt by wad u are doing to me....I want to seek forgiveness if i have ever hurt you....Yes..i admit that i am the clown that entertain you for all this while....But after wad happen,i feel that i am no longer the clown that i used to be..This clown has turn to be someone who is sad,emo,alone...Im filled with misery.....Misery that kills me silently....It is silent killer...May The Great Almighty be there with me to go through this difficult challenge in my life...
Signing off
HeartBroken Clown

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 7:21 PM ...................

Marion in green...


**PatienceIsVirtue** . 4:20 PM ...................

To you I may look like a clown that is there to entertain people...To people's perception,clown are those people who is always cheerful,happy,elated,problem-free.That is the thinking and when this clown is having problems,people around me will not see me as having problem but instead thinking i am just saying another joke....How do i send my message across to u??I am clueless...Every nite i will think...WHY is my life like that?What have i done??Did i do something wrong that i myself don’t know....If there is....tell me....This clown is just hiding all the sorrows that is engrave in my heart....Tears will just roll down my cheek without me knowing....I don’t know what to do?By doing all those things that is entertaining people,I feel that i made my frends happy but on the other hand..me...sad....crying in my heaart....nobody noes....i am doing those things...having this thinking that it will somehow brighten my spirits up...but unfortunately it does not help me but instead it put more pain in me....I wanted to be really frank with you but i see there is no point because every word that comes out from me is all a JOKE to you....Im just praying...every single day, without fail that i will have a pleasant day with me....even better than the previous days.....Even for my frends....i will pray for you so that you are safe to wherever you go....This clown(me) really care for you....all my frends...so much so that i do not want to part with any of u all....It hurts everytime if i have to say a goodbye to you......Now im posting this questions back to you....DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT THIS CLOWN?? ANSWER ME....Be honest....for honesty is the key thing in every relationship...be it Love or Friendship....My heart yearns for happiness....Yearning for Love from you people who i regard as frends....To some people,i dun regard them as frends animore but i put as the top rank list....my families.....Parting with you...my families would mean i am killing a part of me.....You mean alot to me...but WHY do u not understand???Taking every word that i say as a Joke....I am serious....Forgive me if there are mistakes that i do to hurt you....I am terribly sorry....
Signing off
HeartBroken Clown.

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:27 PM


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