**PatienceIsVirtue** . 5:44 PM ...................

wEhee....i just got a new dumb bell...its lovely...i love it!!! Now i can slowly build some muscles...hahas...well...my new dumb bell is not bought but made...its special to me...my dad made it for me...Thank you Dad!! I love my dad!!! hehe...wehee...hmm...i have to start slow in training my muscles...haix...gonna be tough...hope i can do it well...but i don't want to make my body so big...its just for my fitness...hehes...i'm looking forward to go to gym...hehe...weheehee....Looking forward to this Christmas Day too...im going to be in East Coast...hahas...anyone of u going there??Next mth the result will be out...the tension is rising though...i wish every candidate taking O level results will pass with flying colours..Amin..

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:35 PM ...................

ytd went to library with honie....i went to return my book...the story is nice to read...full of suspense....had a happy ending...just like fairy tales...i like to read those that have happy endings..hehes...after going to return the library,we went in to borrow another book...after doing so,me n honie went to IMM...to have sushi...hahas...dunno why i LOVE sushi so much...hahas...we went to eat the sushi and bought a drink at 7 eleven...hahas...i had stomach ache after drinking it....hehes...know why?? honie mix alot of drink together....we have coke,ice lemon tea,100 plus,sprite inside the drink....hehes....we paid $1.60 for the drink...hahas...it was cool doing that...should try more often??hehe...i enjoy going out with my frends....its one of the way i can relax myself....i think next outing will be to the gym...but i still dunno when to go...most likely i'm going with a frend too....going alone is super BORED!!! hahas....maybe i will message honie or my frend to go with me then...hehes...next month will the release of O level results...I am praying and hoping for the best bcoz i've given my best...All the Best for the result...hehes...i am loving purple more and more...weeeheee!!!

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:03 PM ...................

Kesedihan yang menguliti aku ini tidak akan hilang di dalam sekelip mata...
Ia akan terus bergelora selagi aku bernyawa...
HAruskah aku menamatkan riwayat aku untuk menghapuskan gelora itu???
Semakin aku renungkan kisah hidup aku,aku bertambah lemas...
Lemas dengan segala-galanya...lemas dengan keadaan diriku...
Bilakah keadaan ini akan berlalu ataukah ia akan sentiasa di situ tanpa akhirnya...
Aku dibiar terluka...seperti sebatang kayu di lautan yang hanya mengikuti arus air....ke sini tidak...kesana pon tidak....haha....aku jerit tapi tiada siapa yang dengar...Orang tidak faham akan kepedihan ini...mereka dengar tetapi lepas itu mereka lupa...itulah hakikatnya...tidak akan aku jumpa insan yang benar-benar jujur dengan kata-katanya...klau aku jumpa...kemungkinan dia tidak akan dapat aku miliki....aku sudah pasrah dengan kehidupan aku ini...hidup yang hanya diselimuti dengan kesedihan yang akan dtg apabila aku sedang bergembira....Saat aku bergembira hanyalah seketika....itu realitinya....

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 5:53 PM ...................

Hehe...its my 200th post...hahas...that means my blog post is 2 century's old...hehes....hahas...erm...tmr...going to be another day....i will be going out..to the library...to return my book...i have just complete reading it...i am now addicted to novels...hahas...so tmr i am going to spend some time there to read novels...hehes...now i love reading!!! hahas...may this habbit of reading be with me...hehe...i cant wait to go BBQ with my family...hopefully everything permits and nothing go wrong on the last minute....Amin...erm...today is the release of the N level results....i heard it was well done...Congratulations!!! I hope O levels result is also as good as N levels or even better...

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 9:43 PM ...................

heys...just got back from Jurong Point....haha...i had alot of fun going around the extension of Jurong Point...hehe...it was amazing...alot more shops there...hehe...erm...i went there with my good friend...Jinn Chyau...hahas...met Jinn Chyau at 1pm...we were suppose to meet outside Breadtalk but when i got there,it was totally a new JP...hahas...in the end we met outside 7 eleven store...hahas....then we went into the mall...walk around....we really go explore the new JP...from B1 all the way to lvl 2...hehes...when i glance at my watch...it was 4.30pm and we were still walking around the mall...hahas...well...lucky we had our lunch earlier....i had carrot cake and Jinn Chyau had noodles...hahas...dunno wad is it call...then i had a call from my grandmother and my mum....well....she just wanted me to buy her some food home...hahas...she wants mee goreng....hahas...well...yes...i bought for her...erm...my grandmother...well...she call to say that our appointment was cancelled....so...i was like...okie larh...i dun have to rush to CCK and make my way to Woodlands....hehe...Thank You God!! we came across this wallet shop...it is made from stingray skin...i was attracted to the design of the wallet....its fantastic....i did learn something about the wallet...like how is it made...its cool....then we went to Mini Toons and Jinn Chyau bought for me a cute mushroom handphone cover....hehe...its my Christmas present...Thank You Jinn Chyau!!!! its really cute...hehes...after buying it...we walk around for some time...before heading home,we did take pictures.....its fun spending time with my good friend,Jinn Chyau... some pics below...

Labels: FUn Day..

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 6:45 PM ...................

hahas...today i woke up at 7am....haix....went to the market with mum and dad....hehe...it was cool...hmm...after that we had breakfast together....then we head home....did household chores....as usual....hahas....u noe gals....hahas....they have to do that....hmm....after at around 2 plus...my family ate lunch together....hehes....watch twlight....its really nice....hmm....cool...then here i am blogging....hmm...i really miss my frends....i want to see them but im not sure when are they free....haix....hmm....later going out to see my aunt....i am rather excited to see her....hmm....i just hope she is fine....hehes....really miss her....she just reach Singapore at about 12noon today....hmm....she just came back from Mecca...hmm...i would like to go one day....okies....going off to get ready to see my beloved aunt....hahas..byes...

Labels: miss my aunt

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 4:02 PM ...................

feel all alone...
no one to be with...
no one to laugh with...
all that is left is just memories...
memories of us...so happy together...
wish i could just erase it but i cant...
keeps flashing in my mind...
i even try to do things that i dont think i ever tried...
it is so clear that i am hurt by the words that was being said to me...
i feel like there is a razor blade that is used to cut my heart...very deep...
i tried screaming...but no one can hear me...
since no one can hear me,i will just continue screaming all my heart out...
hoping that after i am tired of screaming,my pain,my sorrow,my sadness will go away
but no...i was wrong...totally wrong...my pain,my sorrow,my sadness
is still lingering around me making me choke...
i am helpless and i cant fight anymore...
i am just too weak to even get up on my feet...
why does this have to happen to me...ppl may say they understand...
but how much do they understand...its not the same...
i dont know how much longer i can take it...
hopefully i just dont kill myself before my time comes to leave this place...
too devastated...too down...too sad...

i will try to keep smiling to u all my beloved friends...but do bear in mind that even if i smile,my pain,my sorrow,my sadness will not go away...
but my beloved frends do cheer me up...i may look happy but actually im not...
no matter wad im trying to forget everthing that happen to me in the past...
to u my beloved frends...help me by forgetting my past...love me like you love ur love ones,treasure me like how i treasure u,my beloved fren..accept me just like how i accept who u are...may this misery of mine come to an end soon...
O Allah...pls help this creature of urs...

this post is a piece of my broken heart...

Labels: piece of my broken heart

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 11:59 AM ...................

i walk down the path..
thinking that there will be someone who will follow me..
but when i turn around..
i saw nobody..
feeling so down that i can't even console myself
will any kind ppl out there console me??

now i will not hope..
i will not even dream about it..
the more i hope and dream about it..
the more i will be driven to the dark path where happiness doesn't exist

its lucky that i found out early..
i just try to distract myself from remembering this hurtful feeling of mine
each time i try to forget,
the scene keeps playing itself...
the words suddenly become audible to my ears
i just dunno what to feel right now..

why do i keep doing things that i do not want to do??
why do i still love when my heart says hate??
why do i still care when my heart has been hurt many times??
its always why...why and why??

i just hope to forget the name that has always been in my lips and in my mind
i am scared to love ppl..too scared..
at least i know i tried...and i know i did express my feelings...
now..i dont have any regrets or doubts...
its all clear now that he likes me just as a frend...
fair enough..though i'm hurt but trust me,i will never end the friendship that we have built over just a few months that we have been together in secondary school...to be precise sec 5..
i just hope whoever you choose later in ur life will be the women whom you love,treasure and that you and her will be happy together...
i may be crying but i am happy to see you happy even if i know that i did not make you my own...you are and will always be in my mind...we will be friends...

knowing that i am alone now..
i walk down the dark path again..
waiting to see if there is any ray of happiness
that will shine throughout my entire life..
o Allah..please help me..
i do not wish to be Alone in this planet..

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**PatienceIsVirtue** . 9:12 PM ...................

hehex...today is hari raya haji....hahas...yesterday went to m'sia...i went back to kampong and sleep there for a night and went back to s'pore today....hahas...its nice to celebrate at kampong with ur family.....hahas...i meet my Busu....argh!!! I love Busu...hehe...erm...i gave Busu his present from Bali and i was glad that Busu likes it...hehes...hopefully if i can get to travel again,i will buy more for Busu and for the ppl that i love....hehe...waiting for the result to come out in January....hehe....may i pass with flying colours and go to my desired poly and also go to my desired course...Amin...okies...Peace Out

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 9:23 PM ...................

a wonderful Saturday....called honie yesterday becoz i want to meet him...hahas....miss him sia!! hahas...i met him at his block and we head to the regional library....he return some books and borrowed some more books for his mum....i borrowed myself a book...knowing that its has been a long time since i last touch a book...hahas....hehes....after borrowing we went to Bugis by train....erm...was rather crowded....have to squeeze alittle....then half-way through the journey,we saw our ex-huayians...happens to be our senior....hahas...we had a hearty chat...hehes...well....she is heading to East Coast Park....the alight at Bugis mrt station and we said goodbye to her...we went to bugis and we walk around there....hahas...then we went to IMM to eat sushi....it was heaven to get to eat sushi...hahas....honie bought black pepper chicken and we find a spot to eat...hahas...its fun...we chatted...after eating,we went to Daiso...hahas...then we saw Mdm Adlin with her husband and her child....hehes....after that went to popular and then we head home....not missing out we took some pictures together....Honie...i hope you like the barongan...
*******************PEACE OUT*****************************************************

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:36 PM ...................

heys....im back in Singapore....it feels so GREAT to be back in Singapore...hahas....i went for a holiday...it was a wonderful vacation....my uncle's family,my grandmother,my brother and me went to Bali for a week...hehe...its super nice!! i got the chance to take photos but i will not post it just yet....let me briefly tell you abt the vacation..

DAY 1-Day 4
reach Bali at night....around 10 plus...the hotel ppl picked us up and brought us to the apartment which looks like a 5-star hotel....wow!!! hahas...we went to check the aartment...hehes...it was wonderful....next morning....have to get up early and went to Kintamani....tis is the mountanious place...there is volcano and according to the tour guide,the volcano has erupted 24 times...hahas...then we went to have our lunch at the Muslim restaurant there....its buffet....hahas...u can eat to ur heart's content....hehe....it was very cold there....i was shivering there....hahas....next stop we went to Kuta....tis is the place for shopping!!!! i was like....OH GOODNESS!! its shopping paradise....hehes...my family was enjoying themselves....i am happy to see my family happy...we went looking around Kuta and eventually we bought somethings....hahas....i learnt the skill of bargaining...hahas...then it was my turn to try....hahas...thanks to my aunt who taught me tis....hehe...we get to see the rice terrace and then we went to buy fruits and brought to our apartment and we ate dinner....it was delicious..day 2 was enjoyable...the tour guide,Mika,is a humorous man...hahas...he made us laugh and he made the trip an interesting one..hahas...then we head home and get some rest....next morning on day 3,we went out earlier...tis time Mr Small bring us around....he is Mika's cousin....Mr Small is a rather shy man....he does not talk much to us...hahas...rather boring actually....haha...we went Bedugul and Tanah Lot....Bedugul is a nice place....next stop is the Tanah Lot....its another shopping paradise....hehe....i went to find Barongan for my honie...hahas...Thank You GOD becoz i found the barongan....hehe...i picked the one that is very scary....hahas....Honie,if you are reading my post,i hope you like the barongan that i bought for you...once i got the barongan,i was totally happy...hehes....then we went to batik factory....its nice to see how they make the batik....i bought shirts for my dad....i also bought belangkol(a kind of songkok) for my beloved dad....hahas...erm....bought something for my mum too....hahas...we went for dinner....tis time its at the beach...we actually sit at the beach there....i was happy because i could see the sunset at the beach....the view was wonderful....w ate seafood and costs about $1000 singapore dollars...rupiah is around 1 million plus...hehes...then at night we went to Kuta again....hahas...this is where we really shop like crazy....hehes....my aunt bought for me a Polo t-shirt.....butterfly blouse....bali t-shirt.....hard rock t-shirt.....vietnamese pants....bali cap....necklaces....its all under her expenses...hahas..it was really a shopping paradise if u knoe how to bargain....its worth it....yea!! morning of day 4...we didnt really go out....tired...hahas...well...i went for a swim in the morning....it was relaxing....i love it....

day5
i was rather sad coz we are leaving on day 5....i feel like 5 days come and go real fast....hahas...we check out at 6pm and head on to the international airport at Denpasar...waited for our flight at 10.15pm....hahas....we reach in singapore at abt 1.30am friday morning...i was super tired....we went BK and eat....i am happy to be back in s'pore....i miss BALI....hahas....hahas....erm....next 2 years....maybe going Bangkok...hahas....

Labels: l LOVED it..., LOVE BALI

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 3:55 PM ...................