To you I may look like a clown that is there to entertain people...To people's perception,clown are those people who is always cheerful,happy,elated,problem-free.That is the thinking and when this clown is having problems,people around me will not see me as having problem but instead thinking i am just saying another joke....How do i send my message across to u??I am clueless...Every nite i will think...WHY is my life like that?What have i done??Did i do something wrong that i myself don’t know....If there is....tell me....This clown is just hiding all the sorrows that is engrave in my heart....Tears will just roll down my cheek without me knowing....I don’t know what to do?By doing all those things that is entertaining people,I feel that i made my frends happy but on the other hand..me...sad....crying in my heaart....nobody noes....i am doing those things...having this thinking that it will somehow brighten my spirits up...but unfortunately it does not help me but instead it put more pain in me....I wanted to be really frank with you but i see there is no point because every word that comes out from me is all a JOKE to you....Im just praying...every single day, without fail that i will have a pleasant day with me....even better than the previous days.....Even for my frends....i will pray for you so that you are safe to wherever you go....This clown(me) really care for you....all my frends...so much so that i do not want to part with any of u all....It hurts everytime if i have to say a goodbye to you......Now im posting this questions back to you....DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT THIS CLOWN?? ANSWER ME....Be honest....for honesty is the key thing in every relationship...be it Love or Friendship....My heart yearns for happiness....Yearning for Love from you people who i regard as frends....To some people,i dun regard them as frends animore but i put as the top rank list....my families.....Parting with you...my families would mean i am killing a part of me.....You mean alot to me...but WHY do u not understand???Taking every word that i say as a Joke....I am serious....Forgive me if there are mistakes that i do to hurt you....I am terribly sorry....
Signing off
HeartBroken Clown.

**PatienceIsVirtue** . 8:27 PM ...................